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Few more weeks to 9th June, my 23th Birthday. Nothing interesting about birthdays, my birthday. People exaggerate birthdays, it annoys me. Exaggerate on birthdays and believe only good things can only happens on one's birthday therefore high expectation, makes one forget 'Humble' & 'Life' means. We can't get what we wants and how we want it to be. If we were to DIE right now at this moment, we'll surely die. So don't be happy if you're intelligent, rich, pretty, having the perfect day.....  because one day, in a second, all of those 'gifts' can be taken away.

I do not like my birthday. What's the point... I'm going to be alone anyways...

Nina & I

Nina Sayers

Me

Can you guess what Nina Sayers (played by Natalie Portman) and I has in common? No, I don't look like her. Neither do I has mental disorder nor do I can dance ballet.
What Nina and I has in common? Try guessing.

Manja (Sept '08 - Sept '10)

I miss Manja.. I don't think anyone wants to give her back to us.. She's not independent at all.. I wonder where she is..  ='(

Some Photos.

Wednesday officially has started and it's my off day. yippie ^^

But anyways, I have been having shoulder/neck pain since last week. Any advice anyone?

The obvious bump on the picture above shows how painful and difficult for me to move my neck. =((
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Also.... My hair has grown.....

My hair is officially long! Yaayy!
Do you know how long it has been for me to wait until my hair grows?

I don't blog that much tonight due to tiredness and honestly I slept for only 3 hours last night but I was able to endure long hour at school with the help of coffee.

Until then,
Signing off.

Botanical Garden 2010 trip and holidays.

I wasn't be able to upload the video below because I was confused with Blogger's buttons (yes i'm a noob).
The video below was taken at Botanical Garden Singapore around September 2010 before Year 1 semester 2 started.

Part 1

Part 2 coming soon (blame blogger -.-)

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PS. I want a fairytale wedding!!

(EDIT)

Here is part two on our trip to Botanical.

 

Part 2

Time pass by quickly. Just a moment ago I viewed Far East Movement's blog and happen to see their blog post on Singapore. When I read "arrived at the sands", I was like "sands? what sands? marina bay sands????". Scrolled down, its MARINA BAY SANDS!!!!! I want to go there! 헐!
Marina Bay Sands were meant to attract tourist. For tourist but for a typical kiasu Singaporean like me, *want to go there for what? =((
What I really really want is the Sampan ride. The Sampan ride is what I'm looking forward at. I guess I'll never get what I want. But it's okay though because we can't get what we want. In life, we can either get this and lost that. For example, I get my heartbroken but I happiness in other way.
So, back to Far East Movement's blog I visited today, I scrolled down again, I photograph of Sentosa's Beach view *jealous*. 헐! I should have been to Sentosa before school semester start! But I was afraid that my money would go ching chingg.

But I really want to go though...........

I look like a stalker stalking Far East Movement online. huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu. Kidding. I'm not stalking okay? I'm keeping myself update just like any other fans. huhu.


PS. I'm afraid of Swans.


Signing off. =))


* in singlish.

Dead and school

My blog looks dead to the point that I think no one wants to read my blog.. TT
Nevertheless, I will soon blog more.. Perhaps, since the beginning of year 2 will start tomorrow..

Since new semester will start tomorrow..

Need to wake up early again..

Need to solve problem every weekdays (wednesday not included because its my off day!!), presentations and reflection journal (as "homework"). But what excites me the most is COFFEE!!

Coffee is like my addiction. I need coffee to perk myself up.

This coffee addiction isn't new to my friends and family. huhuhuhu ^^

Few weeks ago I went to school to configure my macbook. Yes it's the Macbook White but I was given two choice; Macbook White or Macbook Air. For IT (Information Technology) its best to choose Macbook or Macbook pro but 1st older brother said something about Macbook Pro that the manufacturer has change etc (i'm not sure).
But anyways (back to the topic), I had coffee (!!) while waiting for IT staff to configure the macbook.

Became a 23 years-old happy woman after had my coffee.

Had my coffee at lawn peacefully alone on the sunny day is like a spa treatment (Be jealous to those living in seasonal weather especially Europe. huhuhu. Kidding). ^^

During this two months break, I lost and gain weight. Lost weight because I was emotionally unstable but was trying to tough up and cope with the pressure I had and gain back some weight.

Before. Lost weight results an obvious V-line face even puffing my cheek looks like of hideous (in my view).

After gain some weight.

Today before my older sister (my only sister) went to Sim Lim Square to buy RAM while getting ready, she heard through my earpiece that I was listening to Far East Movement's Like a G6 at Youtube and surprisingly asked, "You listen to that song?!?"

Confession: I do.

But instead of answering her question, I went out avoiding her question! hahahahaha..

I mean, who doesn't listen to Far East Movement? Everyone do!

But then I went back into our room and tell her that its because I was observing one of the member in the group that resembled 2nd older brother A LOT.

Yes. The above statement is true.

I guess people are wondering who is the person in the group that resemble our 2nd older brother??

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Yes, this one.

I don't know why I seems to have this "defensive wall" avoiding from getting caught when people finds out on things or person I like. For example I love k-pop but was in denial when people ask me. Basically I won't admit if I like someone or I love certain music or group. Another example this the one above about sister and I. huhu.

Aging woman signing off!

Part two.

I was planning to come over to school for the macbook white's configuration tomorrow (since it's already past midnight, its today) but I think I'll come by on the following day.

I think when school holiday begins, I'm not a very happy person. Not because rotting at home which I truly don't mind, but of things that has been happening.

Sometimes I don't know if what I see with my naked eyes are real. But I guess I need a little faith to know what's real.

Honestly, to actually believe what is real to your naked eyes really hurt. Like a dagger stabbed and buried deep inside my heart.

To chase over a guy seems unladylike.

Sometimes I feel that my heart won't listen to me.

I did tell myself to give up on him as its worthless and since it seems like I'm invisible to him but my heart won't listen to me.

I feel like an idiot.

tough.

I did say that I want to forget him. But it's much difficult and I don't think its possible. This feeling I have for him, what is it? I know I like him but why do I feel hurt (can't breath, sudden shock,etc) when I saw those recent photo of him?

I feel sorry and guilty for him because a weak and stupid girl like me could have like him. I don't think any guys would want a weak and stupid girl to like them either.

I don't think it's possible for me to forget him.

Really.

Based on psychological study, a crush only lasts for a maximum of 4 months. If it exceeds, means he/she are already in love.

So, am I in love?

Sorry.

I'm dumb and I can't use my brain to make decision. I tried and tried.

Honestly, make me cry isn't funny at all. You may find it amusing but I may kick your balls for that. So what are you going to do? Run away? Or avoid me?

When I say I may kick your balls means DO NOT RUN AWAY.
When I say I'm not means I AM.
When I say I'm okay means I'M NOT OKAY.
When I'm about to punch you, DODGE MY FIST AND COMFORT ME.
So when I say I may kick your balls, I FEEL HURT AND I NEED YOUR COMFORT.

Basic Female Language.

The End.

So silence means THE END. I'll take note of it.

Although it will be tough for me, maybe 2, 3 or maybe 4 years to completely erase you? If it takes long time for me to completely erase you, I'm truly sorry. Because I think I know how it feels like. I think I'm a pest to you. But please forgive me because I'm just a weak girl.

I'm really weak. Really. I feel hurt easily, I cry a lot, always sick, got skin allergy and sinus, basically I'm terribly weak. So I'm truly sorry.

But please don't get me wrong. I'm not being stubborn. I'm always having really hard to forget. Be it in anything. I have difficulty to forget. So I'm truly sorry.

I'm sorry once again ='{

Holidays starts a week later for me.

Please excuse my awkward position. Was too stress with school that I took photos with awkward pose.

Holiday starts a week later for me. Took extra class because they says it will be beneficial for me for year 2. So I thought why not? But when I were in the classes, oh my I know everything. Not everything. But basically, I don't need the class. Actually, the class is useful to sharpen my knowledge but honestly I feel that my brain gets dried up by mid-noon. Might not come on friday and I might take the assessments at home. Seriously I can't take it!

Few more days left and I do not need to wake up early. Maybe I might for a walk in the morning (the last time I went for a walk in the morning was last year in an attempt to skip class before I went RP of course). So there. Also I seriously need to change my skincare routine! My skin been reacting to this skincare routine. I already change my cleanser but not toner and moisturizer. Might use the Nature Republic lotion for now. My skin may look "perfect" on camera but honestly, if I do a close-up, people might get shocked (pores problem such as enlarged & clogged, fine lines =  1st sign of aging, saggy skin = lack of collagen generate means I need to sleep early for collagen to produce, etc).

Signing off.

Tests and valentines.

One more week to UT3 (Understanding Test 3) and I haven't study yet. This time I must not study on the last minute. I must prepare them now. April 2011 will mark my 2nd year in RP. Time flies really fast! A year more I'll be in my 3rd year!

A lot of my friends are getting married or at least engaged. How about me? I'm single! Lonelygirl88! I'll be Lonelygirl88 on Valentines! *sarcastic* Piisshh, what's so special about valentines anyway. Valentines should be everyday! Honestly, everyday is like valentines day for me if I were to have a significance other. And I think if we love someone despite on the most unluckiest day that someone can just cheer us up.

I'm looking forward for the holidays so that I wouldn't miss few hours of sleep and morning breakfast.

signing off.

Holidays holidays..

Three more weeks to an official long holiday! So, I've been thinking that I need a holiday as in a break! Because ever since I got into RP, I've not been having enough sleep, my diet isn't proper by means I gain/lose weight faster (not good...) and my skin breaks out (and I know enough sleep can cure it). When I was in ITE, I didn't have break outs as bad as this (I not remember having break outs!). Back to holiday plans... So I thought for having a holiday, but Mother wouldn't let me because I'm a lady and its isn't proper. So I thought, why not spend my time sufficiently exploring Singapore instead??? Ever since I got busy, I couldn't go out shopping with sister and mother as per normal or even go out with sister and niece like we used to before. Therefore, I would rather have a "holiday" in Singapore. To the park, maybe? Or some where nicer.. During the holiday, I want myself to sleep earlier and stay away from the laptop!!! No touching laptop! Also I miss watching dramas, variety shows on telly =(

But before planning further, I must tell myself to studying!! 2 more tests for UT2 & I must prepare for UT3.

Signing off.

dramas dramas.

So I've been watching Ugly Betty Season 4 and Daniel falls for Betty? I've been waiting for that since couples of previous seasons before! I feel sad to know that there wouldn't be season 5 for Ugly Betty because 1st of, BAD conclusion! Come on Hollywood experts, you guys need to come out with a good conclusion!

Mary Stayed Out All Night used to be my addiction but because of the happy ending I do not like, I refuse to watch it. Hmpph!! I think I'm looking forward to Dream High, the new drama that is going to aired after Mary Stayed Out All Night ends.

Looking forward to new drama!

Signing off!

Bored and scars.

Bored

I'm so bored. Kill me please. No I did not wear makeup today. Photo was taken weeks ago. My skin is healing and my skin has blemishes and break out prolly bcos of myself sleeping late (think 12 midnight, 1 or 2 in the morning -_-), lack of water (too much coffee plus did not drink enough water results to dehydration means I need more water), stress and touching my face. Yes, touching my face. Have you ever seen Sandara Park of 2NE1 ever touch her face? Watch 2NE1 TV, barely seen her touch her face. Okay, genes play a part but touching face is a NO-NO. Picking on blemishes and 2X NOO! Trust me, cos I always do that.

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Scars

Scars left on my face. Scary I know! Plus panda eyes makes it worst. Taken minutes ago. Scars on my face that is healing although it gonna take times. Also on my chest as you can see it is Keloid. According to doctor it can be remove through cosmetic procedure that is injection and I doubt that the cosmetic procedure gonna be very expensive! The problem about this Keloid I have is it grows(!!) and itches and every I scratch I feel pain. T__T
Anyone knows what to do?

Addiction

I never listens to Kpop songs unless if the songs has meaningful lyrics or catchy/beautiful tunes. These two songs are my addiction at the moment.

IU - Good Day. Tells everything that words I can't express. IU can hit high notes. She can better than that honestly.

I love this song!! Fall in love already (*.*).. Oh Won Bin is very talented! Very very talented! I must say, I am officially his fan! =)

Sirah

past few days...

My story today going to be my life for the pass few days. I came late almost everyday. No, I leave my house late almost everyday and that is a very bad thing! The reason is because the probability of me coming to late is 99/100. That is very not good at all. Prior to waking up late, I wore makeup wrongly although I did not snap a photo of myself on my bad makeup day, I'll compare two photo.

Face with foundation, slight uneven powder setting and I-don't-know-what-I-slap-on-my-face makeup due to EXTREMELY tired and overslept

Face with BB Cream, NO playing with eye makeup and minimal makeup altogether

In conclusion, I bloody need my sleep and I hate foundation! My skin gets worse instead! I'm going to switch to BB Cream for face base! Some of my night I wore...as usual...

Facial Mask

As usual facial mask because I'm bloody tired I could scratch my face.

Dead face

Also I've noticed lately that my hair been falling out ALOT!!

I'm really scared now although I suspected its either my diet or stress... Sighhh...

Sign off..

drama addiction

Mary stayed out all night

My current drama addiction! I'm a "drama" girl. I love watching drama.

This drama above, honestly to whoever watch it, I know this is about maeri and Mookyul couple BUT I really like Maeri and Jungin couple!

funny

Hmm...funny...

Do I have silent reader or is it just me?

Is it from Japan or is it just me?

You are......

I would like to share these "quote" from my BFF. I love her to death. I think she's one in a million who understands me (my mother not included -.- ).

You're a nice person. You're a very good friend. Yes you are naive, it's okay to be naive but there are advantages and disadvantages of being naive. Actually you are a very patience person but the thing is that you get frustrated easily. When you're excited, you get very excited. Your happy moment last in short of time because when you're sad, you get really sad and it's not easy for you to get over it and you take it to your heart. You are a caring and romantic person but it's hidden. - BFF.

I didn't even know that I possess some of the qualities. I didn't know that I'm caring and romantic until one day I thought to myself that I want to get married in a garden and that I want a white wedding. I didn't know until.......*thinking of the pain*..........sighh.....

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