My current life.

 

 Hello.

I have not been updating this blog. I would be lying if I say I am super busy. I have life. I have to graduate although I should be graduating this year. I have to clear all of my modules. I feel sad really. I feel sad for everything. I feel like people are controlling my life. I feel like people outside controlling my life. Can't I just be happy? I can't be happy? I want to work something that I could earn with a happy heart. I want to get married but right now, I'm single. Being single partly may be my fault because i am very meticulous with characters.


And do you know how it feels like to find out someone that you are slowly opening your heart with are newly attached and getting married?

Half year went by.

I guess I'll take the time to post an entry since it has been a really long time since I've post an entry. Here are some updates on my life:

1. This year, 2013, a year which I should have graduated from my three years of polytechnic life. Unfortunately, I did not. I am currently on an academic notice which means that I cannot fail at least one module or I'll get expelled.
2. However, I should have done with school by early April, so right now, I'm working my butts off to graduate. If I am able to graduate, I may be graduating by next year may 2014.
3. My phone died on me twice this year and it's the same problem, charging port and motherboard. I love my phone. (._____.)
4. I'm still single (forever alone....     (._____.)    )
5. I need to meet people so that who knows if I might find someone? naah...
6. The thing about myself is I have trust issue. I don't trust guys easily.
7. Other than still being single, I have new love in life. Can't tell what but definitely not a boyfriend because I'm still single!

I just hope that part of my life completed by this year. I really need to prepare for the next chapter of my life. The thing is that I have yet to complete this chapter and still through.

January Favourite.

January favorite:

• Sophie Monk Hydrating Moisturizer Jelly
• I just happen to saw Sophie Monks' Ultra Whitening Essence because I need one for my hyperpigmentation. Since my face cream is running out, I just grab their face cream (which is extremely jelly-like!). It sink into my skin. Its like giving my skin water! Hearts it!
• Silkygirl Moisture Rich Lipstick in Vamp & Romantic
• I've always been wanting a dark berry lipstick ever since I watch clothesencounter Jenn's I heart fall tag. Basically any she can pulls off any lipcolor. Guardian Pharmacy was having a sale. Happens that Silkygirl Moisture Rich was having 1 for 1 hence the need for me to grab one...or two. I got a dark berry color Vamp and a bright pink/rosy color Romantic. Of course pulling off a daring deep dark color requires a courage. I just wear them and as always plug on my music. Taadaa~ there you go.. ^^
• Mac Cosmetics Lipstick in Angel
• Got it when you exchange six empty Mac product for a lipstick. Its a nude pink lipstick. I had a couple of nude lipstick but this one is more in a pink side. Its a staple in my makeup bag.
• Rachel K CC Cream
• I am originally not a fan of CC cream first being it so hard to blend. Also not super great in covering hyperpigmentations or scarring or acne that I have which BB cream can do.
  HOWEVER, it's skincare benefits is extremely AWESOME. I can definitely see a difference using Rachel K CC Cream. Covering, I am not sure but definitely it evens out my skin (although not so as a covering cosmetics T__T).
• Heme 3D Hydrating Sheer BB Cream
• Another sheer covering cosmetics. People have been complementing my skin. I think of of those days when I am putting this BB cream on. Sheer coverage that makes my skin glows. Plus, it has spf 50!!!
• Candy Crush Saga
• Its a game app that I have been addicted. I was one a lead but since I was busy with FYP, I could not catch up. T_T
  Nevertheless, Highly recommend the game. You can play them online or download their Apple or Android app. More info here
  
• School 2013
• Korean Drama based on an everyday school life of students in Korea. I love Jang Nara ever since I was 13 years old!! Now that I'm 25, How long was it?!?
  The drama itself I love soo much. Great to takes my mind off from FYP. LOL.
  Other than that.......
• Kim Woo Bin
• YES! From School 2013 korean drama. He's awesome!!!! I love him!!!! The played Rebellious student in the drama. Some little fact, he's actually a good student with good grades back during his high school days (as oppose to me T__T)
• Raspberry Field
• It's not a fruit or a field full of fruits. But its an Indie band. This band's music has appear in Etude House's Commercial. I super LOVE their music. There's sad on like "Have you Seen?" and happy one "Saturday afternoon". Great for one of those days when I'm having blues.
  More on my favourite tracks

New post.

Hello everyone.

I deactivate this blog due to personal reason. To be honest, I've encountered "stalking" in which someone grabbed a photo of mine from my whatsapp display picture and attempt to find me. CREEP. If he we to find me, I'll make police report.
Supposedly last semester *I need another semester for a repeating module*. I need to work hard. I find that some people are not understanding.  Now, I don't care anymore. Just get everything done and leave school.

Everyone knows I love TOP. Well, I am contemplating my "feelings" for him *what the hell am I talking*. lolol. because everyone seems to love him, i am contemplating whether or not I should continue likes him *i'm talking crap right now.. lol*.. oh! did i mention that ZE:A Kwanghee is soooo manly and handsome without makeup on and he is sooo handsome and attractive regardless with or without plastic surgery?!? I couldn't describe the kind of guy i find attractive but i think Kwanghee describe the kind of guy i find attractive *minus the loud stage personality he pulled on*.. I think he's different off stage..

Lately this year, I find orange suits me. I've been pulling off orange look a lot than pink look that i normally sports on.

Oh... and i found out recently... for my 24 years of living in Singapore, that I didn't know you can sit here..

I went here by accident. And this place is non other than Clarke Quay. This is definitely the new place for me to be alone.

Signing off

 

pyung pyung~~

Before going off to bed, I shall write a short entry. Starting from mid-august to late-august, it was mark the beginning of a long holiday. I written down list of things I need to do including walking in the park, learn cooking and baking, cleaning the house everyday, walking in the business district area on the weekdays morning and so on. However, I have not done so. I've been slacking and been getting up late however lately I've been getting up early (which is strange). Oh, also to have a Korean drama marathon and movie marathon but I have not done so.

Anyways, sayonara annyeong goodbye. I'm off to bed.

Truth

Two years later, after we moved on, I know the truth. Two years ago, I was in an emotional turmoil. It hurts. It hurts that my heart felt choking. I wish you would have told the truth. I wish you would have tell me. You keep in just like I do.

Now.....

We have already moved on......

We moved on with our life......

Although it's heart-breaking that we already moved on, or maybe you've already moved on,

 

I believe things happen for reasons.....

The reasons that I've yet to know.....

After two years........

a noob developer.

I'm officially turning 24 years old in few hours from now. I love birthday wishes. Birthday wishes are the best gifts I've ever received.

And......

.....Yes, that is me. I'm a noob. I can't be a developer. Just that I don't have the confidence. I feel like dying. Currently, I'm working on a project revamping a website. I don't mind being a developer, if i know. Right now, I know nuts about JavaScript. I learned it for a lesson. One thing about JavaScript that makes life complicate is that it NEVER TELLS what the main bugs are. Normally when writing a code, bugs would appear therefore makes a programmer's life much easier. But, JavaScript......

it's like, you're in a relationship and your partner did not tell the problems in the relationship so you need to consistently keep on guessing..

Need to get back to work.

Signing off.

= (

I'm dying..... ='(

I doubt that I would be graduating next year.. ='(

I have no confidence at all and wonder how I'm able to endure until year 3......

I don't even know what I want to do in life...

I don't know if I love IT and writing codes but for sure I want to be like older brothers.....

I love writing and I love stories......

I love art and I love acting.....however I can't pursue in those due to obstacles......

My best subject in school was Art but I could take it for being a private candidate in N'level.

The only dream I have left now and getting married to my prince charming and having a family.....but

unfortunately i have no boyfriend or someone i love......never even have a boyfriend before......


My sad pathetic life......

sobsobsob...