Friend.

I did promise (2 months ago?) that I would be posting an upcoming post but....

But anyways, many things had changed for the past few years. Friends comes and goes. Sometimes I do not even know if I am a good friend or not. Am I? Or not? I feel that I am alone. Eventhough my friend would say no BUT I FEEL SO. I am NOT saying that I need a companion sooner, NO. BUT I feel a GAP between my friend(s) and I. I feel like breaking down bit by bit. I do not know anymore if they are busy, extremely busy or I AM JUST THE PAIN IN THE ASS. Due to this reception, they might think "all headscarves girls are the same. they are hypocrite and backstabber". FIRST OF ALL, THIS MEANS THAT YOU DO NOT REALLY KNOW ME AT ALL. YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT I HAVE THIS SO-CALLED "ANTI" WITH HYPOCRITES AND BACKSTABBER. I HAVE BEEN BACKSTABBED BEHIND MY BACK MANY TIMES SINCE I WAS A CHILD AND NOW I AM A FULLY GROWN WOMAN; I AM USED TO IT. SO HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT I BACKSTABBED AND A HYPOCRITE? AS A FRIEND YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT I AM A VERY HONEST PERSON AND IF I DO NOT LIKE SOMETHING ABOUT YOU, I'LL USE SARCASM OR SHUT MY MOUTH. BUT SO FAR, THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT YOU THAT I HATE. SADLY, YOU DO NOT APPRECIATE MY TRUST AND FRIENDSHIP. THAT IS FINE. FRIEND COMES AND GOES.

So this is a shoutout to all my friends. I am truly sorry that I am not a good friend.