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What am I supposed to say? I am trying to keep myself busy despite the fact that I am not. Ha Ha.

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signing off.

Stress bug.

Recently I have been emo-ing for couples of things. I know people do not care about what had been going through in my life right now but I do want to share some of my thoughts.

What is it has been bothering me?

If I say College...

Revisions for this upcoming test on the first week of my College 4th term? I have not been hitting the books yet although I SHOULD BE.

Dang... I should be but there IS something that has been bothering me. This means that it is not about College (or shall I say revisions to simplify).

But perhaps it is about my social life in College?

In fact, I do not bother since I did try to keep myself a distance from other students in College; try not to expose myself to other students like I did previously in college of different area that cause myself in troubles by some ill-behavior students over there such as betraying friends, bitching, having a grudge on others even towards me a not so attractive (according to my opinion).


Basically my social life in College is perfectly fine and as what I want it to be as.

My family?

They are fine. Nothing that I could share about. They are "fine" as always.

Friends perhaps...

I miss them a lot. Hmm...

The truth is that I feel like I am about to lose them slowly.

But maybe because we have not been meeting up and we should, maybe one day when everybody are free from their work and important task.

I feel like I owe a friend and another. A friend whom taught me what true friendship means and indirectly show me that patience is what every ladies should possessed. But what did I gave her. *Emo-ing* Ha ha.

Hmmm... I miss my friends especially the closest one.

However, everyone have important everyday tasks to be done. We have our things that should be done.

Ah! I suddenly remembered something. If any of you have read my post that is more that 2 years ago...

Wow... Time passes by so fast. Remembering about such situation makes my stomach growl and sometimes I feel like passing out. How foolish can I be? Honestly I do not want to think about it but the thing is I cannot forget it no matter what and how I do, it seems to be glued into my brain memory. He was the first person that my feelings went very deep into my heart. When he called it off, it physically hurt so much that I feel I almost lose oxygen in my body. Words cannot describe I it truly hurt.

Dang... It's raining. The wind is inviting me to my pillow and I am getting sleepy.

Signing off.

16 random fact about me.

I decided to do random fact about me after seen icyabstract blog on hers random fact since she tagged for everyone. Here it goes.


1. I am a mixed of Malay-Chinese-Malabaries-Bengali-Boyanese ancestries. Therefore, do not be surprise for the fact that I have medium curly hair with my fair complexion and etc (but since I am living in Singapore, I have slightly Tanned skin).

2. I am currently studying in a field of electronics engineering. But my actual real interest is Art, Literature and Theater.

3. I am an animal lover. I cry when I saw discovery channel or news of animals been abuse or killed. I will anything to save animal even I have to touch pigs or dogs.

4. I hate chocolate so much but I do consume Cocoa due to its health benefits. Not only that, any sweet and fat related food product including dairy product make me vomit. Spice is the thing for me. Hur hur!

5. I have natural curl eyelashes (due to my mixed ancestries) and some people do not believe that my sister and I have natural curl eyelashes included our high school/secondary school teacher whom wrote our name in the school’s discipline act for wearing cosmetics (but the fact is that we never did!!!!!!!!!!!!) and she even called our parent for not believing! My mother came up to my school explains to them that we inherited our eyelashes from her. Means it is natural.

6. Because of my passion for Art, Literature and Theater, I did write Fiction stories. I will one day produce a Novel and hope to be a Novelist cum Scriptwriter. I am an aspiring writer and I got these genes from my mother.

7. I love to study and it is one of my hobbies. Aside from those above, I love cracking my brain with mathematics, calculus and puzzles which is the reason why I got into engineering field. How nerdy am I?

8. Most people thought that I am smart but the truth is that I have short-term memory meaning I forget things that I learn easily but I do have picture memory meaning I remembered thing through picture views.

9. Everyone knows that I love love LOVE Korean boy-band Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK). What was the actual reason that I love them so much? I was deeply heartbroken and was still waiting like waiting for the sky to drop for more than a year for the person who taught me how to love. That is when I began to love and get addicted to Korean boy-band DBSK for the reason to forget about the person I used to care and love the most. Basically, without this Korean boy-band around in the entertainment industry, it would be merely impossible for me to forget about him.

10. I had my 1st love and I did date but I neither had a boyfriend nor my 1st kiss taken from some frogs. I believe 1st kiss should reserve uniquely for my husband (if I have one!).

11. I used to be in a Gothic scene such as wearing all black including a black jacket along with thick black eyeliner but as the same time I tried to keep my cuteness with me. Later on I found out that there is such thing as Gothic Lolita!

12. I listen to Alternative songs including Alternative Pop, Alternative Rock and Alternative Metal. I also listen to Gothic rock and my favorite would definitely be Marilyn Manson. In reality, I hate Reggae and Hip-Hop so much prior to a stalker who used to stalk me did opened these sorts of songs along as he stared over me like a delusional BUT thank you very much to the person who taught me how to love, I did not hate Reggae and Hip-Hop anymore.

13. I dislike guys who smoke, drink and clubbing. For guys who possess as mention on the previous sentence can forget 100% about pursuing me because I will not bother to entertain these kinds even though there were supposely to be the last man on earth. Although I do not have any specific type of guy I like simply because I do not judge book by its cover, I can be quite picky in choosing a guy for me.

14. I can be sarcastic, straight-forward and brutally honest when it comes to speaking. Also I might appear tomboyish but I have the softest heart that words can soften my heart like a cheesecake soften up.

15. I can be quite anti-social when it comes to friends. Before befriend with a person, I meticulously study either can I trust or not on that particular person. Not that I do not want to mix with everyone but I was betrayal several times by friends. To simplify, when I trust a friend, I truthfully trust a friend and they become one of the closest and trusted friend but if I do not trust a friend, I will completely ignore a friend and refused to mix with them.

16. I have a fear of clown more than grossing out on creepy crawling. Clown is equal to Satan or Devil in my opinion. Blah!

I am tagging everyone!!

Signing off.

HOW??

I am so obsessed with skincare! I know most girls should be obsessing with makeup but what I really want is a porcelain skin. So I have had read on how to get a porcelain skin and here is what I found out.



St. Ives apricot scrub

St. Ives mineral clay mask

St. Ives Stress gel



Are these good? I've tried the second mention above and bloody hell I love it.



I found out that "Follow Me UV White O2 Advance Toner" recommended by the Sales Assistant is very friendly to my skin.

I found out that "Neutrogena Fine Fairness Foaming Cleanser" works very well for my skin but not as friendly as the toner. Further more, it last me for just a month unlike my "somang foaming cleanser" that last me 3 months long. I guess I need to do survey and research. A cleanser that is gentle yet effective.

I saw Bio-Oil in one of the nearest pharmacy and I thought of buying:



Bio Oil

100% Tea Tree Oil



How and what should I do? I heard it is natural. So, why not?



Are alcohol in skincare ingredient are really alcohol that were made into alcoholic drink? Confusing. . . .



Because you see, my "Biore Cleansing Oil" is the only makeup remover that is very suitable for me. Or should I take a look at ZA Cleansing oil?

I think I am in love with Amelie Poulain ost songs!!

Signing off.

"Sweet" dream?

I forgot to mention earlier before my few previous post that I had a strange dream (well, I've had always have). That was all about winter, night shopping sales (etc...) and the most scariest/weirdest was that the fact that I, along with my other friends (I will not mention who) and my sister were being in this situation where a good-looking guy watch or look after us.

Here what happened in my not-so-sweet-dream. . . .

- This guy whom supposedly to be my, my trusted friends and sister's guardian.

- It was winter in a middle of the night and the place are not like Singapore, in fact I love the place. At that time it terribly busy because of Christmas sales.



I along with my friends K, S, A and my sister are not aloud to go out as what had been warned by the guy shall I call him AA?
But because of the night Christmas sale, S was so curious and pulled me along with her to go shopping but I was in doubt. Without acknowledge my words she pulled me along and when shopping in this boutique. It was so busy. As S was shopping trying some clothing, suddenly my sister popped in front of me out of nowhere and join S for shopping. K went out and warned me not to go out and be home instantly and A was at the back take no notice about the situation. I told K that it was not me but S and my sister. But once everyone was there AA came in the boutique and told all of us to go home. But I ignore him and play with the snow while looking at the dark night sky. As I was doing enjoying my view, people everywhere rushed toward my right side like the world was about to end. Out of curiosity, I follow suit which indeed had been opposed from AA as what he said curiosity killed the cat. But then as I ran forward with the crowd I saw this light on the right as I run forward away from AA. What is the light??

It was in fact my neighborhood with my neighborhood school backyard. I was stunned. For all the time I was in a humongous white tent filled with I-do-not-know-if-its-real night/winter! As I saw some senior citizen enjoying the outdoor sun, I went out from the humongous white tent and then AA scream "don't go out there!"

Then I woke up from my not-so deep sleep. FYI, AA is not bad as my point of view just that he was being protective in a softer kind of way (if you know what I mean). AA was in fact quite attractive in my point of view.
Ohh... I remembered he was wearing red t-shirt and jeans, not so tall, not so short about average.

Weird weird! So sad it was not what it seems it should be.

Now I am going to hit the TV screen.

Signing off.

Techs and gadgets.

Here is another post about me myself and I so be prepare to get bore. This week is the last week for the second term of this semester and I can't wait for holidays!
And in a few days I might be getting my mp3 from a local (Singapore) brand called Creative. I know people think I should get Portable Multimedia Player or Play Station Portable but honestly I don't need certain functions available in these latest gadgets. I don't need multi-function gadget to do its work because its very inconvenient for me. I will be getting the Creative Zen stone plus.



Zen stone plus basically is identical (but slightly larger) with the Zen stone (that is quite similar with the ipod shuffle). However, it has monochromic OLED screen, a built-in FM tuner, a stopwatch (the first ZEN player to have this ability) and a built-in microphone. A built-in speaker version was released later after this version was released. And I might be getting Zen stone plus with built-in speaker.

Okay, the reason why I do not want to get those latest, most popular IN-gadgets is because later on the craze about these tech will possibly die. Onces a very new and latest gadget would be released in the future, I might be getting it and not now.

I think should be hitting my theory books.

Signing off.