Tanned.

Went for swimming yesterday because sis insisted on going for swimming and sun-tanning (I am not a fan of sun-tanning) a couple of days before. I thought, "maybe I could learn how to swim". I drowned onces for not knowing how to swim and it is a nightmare; I thought I was going to die!
For your information, I love my fair skin so I slapped on SPF 130 sunscreen every 30 minutes and STILL I LOOKED TANNED! Actually not very tanned to the point I looked like roasted. Actually my tan is not that bad but I hope I could regain my fair skin back.

I heard Lee Teuk of Super Junior is having depression. I hope he is doing well. Life isn't fair after all I guess. You see, when I am facing problems and pressures (ps. I could not handle pressure, get stress and worried easily), I will always bare things in mind which is "this is just a test from God and He knows and will always know my strength and up till where my strength is; limit of my strength". What I mean is that, there is strengths in every of us that we do not know. Some of us gave up in everything thinking there is no chance in life. We need to look forward and think for our loved ones and for ourselves. I know it is extremely tough to look forward because I have been there before like many time! And there were times where I could not look up to anyone. But a times I can looked up for my sister and bestfriend. Love someone for merely 2 years? No one knows except for my readers!!

PS. I want my fair skin back!!!!

Signing off.

Pressure strikes.

I truly do not know what I want to do in my life. I feel that I am losing bit by bit. I do not want to sound like as if I am grabbing attention but honestly I do not know what I want to do in my life. Luck is not in my side anyways.

- Getting into the course that is completely opposite of my main interest. I could no longer cope it. :'(
- People do not appreciate your sincerity. They make use of it for their own sake. Same as people do not appreciate your friendship, they make use of it for their own sake. BETRAYER.
- When I thought he was the right person, I was about to give my everything. But to know he is not I was crushed. I pretend not to know that he is not the right one finally I get what I deserved. In his mind this love is just a puppy love but for me it is not.
- Due to the reception I mention above, being a stubborn person I learned that I could not forget him for merely 2 years. 2 years of grieving and occasionally shedding tears (You see, when I love someone, I love him forever but when it is over, my love for him can never be easily replaced). Now, I am afraid of starting new; I am afraid of being into new relationship. Sigh.
- Also this person who taught me what is love and what it feels like to be loved, told everyone (actually not everyone because I do not have prove but he did told someone) that I fall for him first but the truth is it was him who fall for me which is in fact a puppy love (I discovered it recently after much thoughts) and I have proves and witnesses. Sigh, I am extremely disappointed with him. Only GOD knows the TRUTH.
- Everyone seems to blame me for tragic/incident I never do or unintended to do. I feel like breaking into pieces.

Life is not fair after all. Sigh.

Signing off.

New Obsession. 2NE1.

Gosh... I did mention in my very old blog post that I was addicted to DBSK. My new addiction/obsession is non other than,
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Rookie girl group 2NE1!

Oh my I have never been so captivated by girl group my whole life (Yes... Not even Wondergirls).
These girls are very talented and their music, videos, performance (especially their debut performance) are such a boom!
They are like, female version of BigBang. Honestly I never fond of girl group until 2NE1 debut. Check out their debut performance by clicking the link below.
2NE1 debut performance.

I know I have been a bit slow about this since I was away many weeks before. Nevertheless I already knew they goinf to debut soon before and I doubt that they going to be huge once they debut.

Also just for gag Park Kyung Lim, Jang Nara and Lee Soo Young does a parody of 2NE1.
3NE1 - Fire.

Signing off.

Rather "weak".

I was trying to post an entry about my Overseas trip which include my written diary entry AND my audio "diary" entry. BUT when I tried to upload the 1st audio, it failed. WHY? Sigh... Or should I type on instead of posting it in audio. Well, the audios are more realistic than what is written. Oh well, I will try to fix it.

Speaking of overseas, honestly I realise that I am rather weak. I could neither withstand the coldness nor the super hotness during the summer time at the beautiful country. I must say weather in Singapore are more stable. Neither too hot nor too cold and it is not too windy at all. Just nice except for the humid. The overbearing humid make me feel like taking more shower than my normal shower routine supposed to be.
But anyways, I remembered when I was younger the first time I went to a village in Johor, I had a lot of mosquito bites to the point where my part of my skin bitten my mosquito were swollen. My mother was shock. But maybe because I was not used to living in village.
Then few years ago (I think in the year 2007) I took an effort to participate in a blood donation programme. I was extremely excited and happy because of all four of us (include myself and a few classmates), I was eligible to donate my blood despite the fact that I do not have enough blood (as what had been mention by the nurses). But after I did donated, resting on the "hospital bed", I started to feel nausea, fainting and my head was spinning and I could not see properly because everything in my eyes were almost blurry. I tried to speak or scream but I could not because I was too weak to even speak or to tilt my head. Until a female doctor who set her eyes upon me lip-sync a sentence that I could lip-read "Are you okay?". I frowned as signal that I was not okay and barely mumble "No". She then got up from her seat and make a fast big path towards me while telling the other nurses that I was not okay and help me out. Everyone who was there were shocked.
Many weeks ago I was on overseas, the weather was extremely cold. Everyone knows I could not withstand coldness so that night I had a fever. My body was heating like crazy, I could not get up an by the next day my whole body turns red. Everyone was stunned. And on the same trip, I did went to the theme park. After the third ride, I had nausea, got sick and vomitted non-stop for the whole night until the next day still my body felt weak due to the vomitting and my stomach was fully empty. How lame am I?

I know people might think that I am weak but at least I do not have weak heart? Hehe... How I wish I am physically strong enough. Oh well, I am blessed with what I have now. (^.^)

Signing off.

Short update.

I logged into my Google/Blogger account since I thought maybe I should update but right now at the moment my head is completely blank and I have lost what I wanted to type on.....

*thinking*

*5 mins later*

From tomorrow onwards I will begin my revisions therefore I doubt that perhaps I would sparingly update my blog. But still, I will not abandon this blog of mine.

The truth is someone actually pissed me off to the point that I am about to burst out like a mad chimpanzee at this moment right now. If it was to be myself on the past or shall I say few years ago I would have scream, curse, swear, shout, fight like a maniac anyone could have imagine. I would have broken his bones and make him cry like I did to ***. But you see, I am already 21; a mature young woman AND since the beginning of last year I decided I should change to BECOME A BETTER PERSON. NO, A BETTER YOUNG WOMAN because WHY? later on I am probably going to have a husband and childrens; family AND I have already told myself earlier not to throw booms and explosion to others no matter how bad or bloody filthy heart he they possessed. So why not, leave him and his filthy BRAIN lives in the realm of kiddyland? And did I tell that I smelt jealousy from this Basket? Oh my, he should go for a sex-change. Because I thought only girls get jealous.

"IGNORANCE IS A BLISS". The phrase I mentioned on this previous sentence that have had always been floating around my ears and eyes from either people I knew or not seems to be true.

Signing off.

My lame reason and my fav blogger.

Why, oh why???

Is it me or is it my skin getting darker? And I am feeling weak and weary. 10 hours of sleep or so could then awakes my body and make myself feel fresh. I am so tired!
Anyways I received a parcel and it was from MagicalTannsu. I bought brushes from her blogshop. Honestly her service is amazing!

Soft Pink Stippler.

Merle Norman Authentic Kabuki Brush.


Some of the things I had learned over the past few weeks, be patience and STOP BEING KIASU.

And yes. I am getting chubbier after got back to Singapore. I need to cut down my food intake.

Signing off.

Gifts part 1.

Time does fly really fast. I would like to share things that was given to me as a gift that I used but over the time as it was about the get worn out, I kept it and still in my closet.

(PS. click to enlarge)

First of all, the mug I received for christmas....

I got this from when celebrating christmas with co-worker. See Daniel, I still keep it! Hehe.


Some gifts from Diana....

Pencil case given for my 18th birthday from Diana.

Red clutch from her too.

Perlini Silver's bracelet given from her too on my 20th birthday. Still new like always. hehe.

Comoditee wallet from nurul J for my 20th birthday.

INK bacgpack in brown colour from my sister, Hana.

INK Brown bag and Elizabeth Arden provocative woman perfume from my 1st older brother.

MiniToon rose???? Its a fake plush rose, handmade given by Renuka. I miss her! And there is note written inside the mini envelope. hee..

What was written, nothing special but meaningful to me. Did I told you that this is my valentine gift? On that day we actually celebrate together having lunch together! Hihi.. Miss those days..

That is not the end of it. There is alot of gifts given to me that I still treasure.

Signing Off.

"Shop[p]in"

I think I am going to be broke. Seriously I dislike window shopping because somehow I would end up buying a thing or two of an unimportant things. When I go to the mall most probably to survey things OR to buy things that is important. I guess I am not an average girl. But IF I feel like going shopping, I rather go alone as I feel I need personal space. Nowadays, it pissed me off when my shopping partner cannot figure out if she/he need an unnecessary thing. I mean, "you don't need it why bother to buy???!?"

But anyways, I went to Watsons because I heard Silkygirl had their own BB Cream and yes they did! I did not buy though because I have already had two and planning to buy those from Beauty Credit since I am most comfortable with their product (I had their liquid foundation, powder pact, cheek color/blusher, Sunblock).

Things I had bought today are:

- TheFaceShop cheek brush (Look rather angled and flat than a normal blush brush)
- TheFaceShop Home Aesthetic Pack Hydrating Milk Pack
- Beauty Credit Lovely Cheek Color (Peach Girl)
- Beauty Credit Whitening Sun Cream SPF39 PA++ ( I got another free prior to purchase this product)

Now, I need to save up my money. Oh, did I mention that I love Beauty Credit Blusher?! (^.^)

Until Then.

Signing Off.