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What am I supposed to say? I am trying to keep myself busy despite the fact that I am not. Ha Ha.

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signing off.

Stress bug.

Recently I have been emo-ing for couples of things. I know people do not care about what had been going through in my life right now but I do want to share some of my thoughts.

What is it has been bothering me?

If I say College...

Revisions for this upcoming test on the first week of my College 4th term? I have not been hitting the books yet although I SHOULD BE.

Dang... I should be but there IS something that has been bothering me. This means that it is not about College (or shall I say revisions to simplify).

But perhaps it is about my social life in College?

In fact, I do not bother since I did try to keep myself a distance from other students in College; try not to expose myself to other students like I did previously in college of different area that cause myself in troubles by some ill-behavior students over there such as betraying friends, bitching, having a grudge on others even towards me a not so attractive (according to my opinion).


Basically my social life in College is perfectly fine and as what I want it to be as.

My family?

They are fine. Nothing that I could share about. They are "fine" as always.

Friends perhaps...

I miss them a lot. Hmm...

The truth is that I feel like I am about to lose them slowly.

But maybe because we have not been meeting up and we should, maybe one day when everybody are free from their work and important task.

I feel like I owe a friend and another. A friend whom taught me what true friendship means and indirectly show me that patience is what every ladies should possessed. But what did I gave her. *Emo-ing* Ha ha.

Hmmm... I miss my friends especially the closest one.

However, everyone have important everyday tasks to be done. We have our things that should be done.

Ah! I suddenly remembered something. If any of you have read my post that is more that 2 years ago...

Wow... Time passes by so fast. Remembering about such situation makes my stomach growl and sometimes I feel like passing out. How foolish can I be? Honestly I do not want to think about it but the thing is I cannot forget it no matter what and how I do, it seems to be glued into my brain memory. He was the first person that my feelings went very deep into my heart. When he called it off, it physically hurt so much that I feel I almost lose oxygen in my body. Words cannot describe I it truly hurt.

Dang... It's raining. The wind is inviting me to my pillow and I am getting sleepy.

Signing off.

16 random fact about me.

I decided to do random fact about me after seen icyabstract blog on hers random fact since she tagged for everyone. Here it goes.


1. I am a mixed of Malay-Chinese-Malabaries-Bengali-Boyanese ancestries. Therefore, do not be surprise for the fact that I have medium curly hair with my fair complexion and etc (but since I am living in Singapore, I have slightly Tanned skin).

2. I am currently studying in a field of electronics engineering. But my actual real interest is Art, Literature and Theater.

3. I am an animal lover. I cry when I saw discovery channel or news of animals been abuse or killed. I will anything to save animal even I have to touch pigs or dogs.

4. I hate chocolate so much but I do consume Cocoa due to its health benefits. Not only that, any sweet and fat related food product including dairy product make me vomit. Spice is the thing for me. Hur hur!

5. I have natural curl eyelashes (due to my mixed ancestries) and some people do not believe that my sister and I have natural curl eyelashes included our high school/secondary school teacher whom wrote our name in the school’s discipline act for wearing cosmetics (but the fact is that we never did!!!!!!!!!!!!) and she even called our parent for not believing! My mother came up to my school explains to them that we inherited our eyelashes from her. Means it is natural.

6. Because of my passion for Art, Literature and Theater, I did write Fiction stories. I will one day produce a Novel and hope to be a Novelist cum Scriptwriter. I am an aspiring writer and I got these genes from my mother.

7. I love to study and it is one of my hobbies. Aside from those above, I love cracking my brain with mathematics, calculus and puzzles which is the reason why I got into engineering field. How nerdy am I?

8. Most people thought that I am smart but the truth is that I have short-term memory meaning I forget things that I learn easily but I do have picture memory meaning I remembered thing through picture views.

9. Everyone knows that I love love LOVE Korean boy-band Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK). What was the actual reason that I love them so much? I was deeply heartbroken and was still waiting like waiting for the sky to drop for more than a year for the person who taught me how to love. That is when I began to love and get addicted to Korean boy-band DBSK for the reason to forget about the person I used to care and love the most. Basically, without this Korean boy-band around in the entertainment industry, it would be merely impossible for me to forget about him.

10. I had my 1st love and I did date but I neither had a boyfriend nor my 1st kiss taken from some frogs. I believe 1st kiss should reserve uniquely for my husband (if I have one!).

11. I used to be in a Gothic scene such as wearing all black including a black jacket along with thick black eyeliner but as the same time I tried to keep my cuteness with me. Later on I found out that there is such thing as Gothic Lolita!

12. I listen to Alternative songs including Alternative Pop, Alternative Rock and Alternative Metal. I also listen to Gothic rock and my favorite would definitely be Marilyn Manson. In reality, I hate Reggae and Hip-Hop so much prior to a stalker who used to stalk me did opened these sorts of songs along as he stared over me like a delusional BUT thank you very much to the person who taught me how to love, I did not hate Reggae and Hip-Hop anymore.

13. I dislike guys who smoke, drink and clubbing. For guys who possess as mention on the previous sentence can forget 100% about pursuing me because I will not bother to entertain these kinds even though there were supposely to be the last man on earth. Although I do not have any specific type of guy I like simply because I do not judge book by its cover, I can be quite picky in choosing a guy for me.

14. I can be sarcastic, straight-forward and brutally honest when it comes to speaking. Also I might appear tomboyish but I have the softest heart that words can soften my heart like a cheesecake soften up.

15. I can be quite anti-social when it comes to friends. Before befriend with a person, I meticulously study either can I trust or not on that particular person. Not that I do not want to mix with everyone but I was betrayal several times by friends. To simplify, when I trust a friend, I truthfully trust a friend and they become one of the closest and trusted friend but if I do not trust a friend, I will completely ignore a friend and refused to mix with them.

16. I have a fear of clown more than grossing out on creepy crawling. Clown is equal to Satan or Devil in my opinion. Blah!

I am tagging everyone!!

Signing off.

HOW??

I am so obsessed with skincare! I know most girls should be obsessing with makeup but what I really want is a porcelain skin. So I have had read on how to get a porcelain skin and here is what I found out.



St. Ives apricot scrub

St. Ives mineral clay mask

St. Ives Stress gel



Are these good? I've tried the second mention above and bloody hell I love it.



I found out that "Follow Me UV White O2 Advance Toner" recommended by the Sales Assistant is very friendly to my skin.

I found out that "Neutrogena Fine Fairness Foaming Cleanser" works very well for my skin but not as friendly as the toner. Further more, it last me for just a month unlike my "somang foaming cleanser" that last me 3 months long. I guess I need to do survey and research. A cleanser that is gentle yet effective.

I saw Bio-Oil in one of the nearest pharmacy and I thought of buying:



Bio Oil

100% Tea Tree Oil



How and what should I do? I heard it is natural. So, why not?



Are alcohol in skincare ingredient are really alcohol that were made into alcoholic drink? Confusing. . . .



Because you see, my "Biore Cleansing Oil" is the only makeup remover that is very suitable for me. Or should I take a look at ZA Cleansing oil?

I think I am in love with Amelie Poulain ost songs!!

Signing off.

"Sweet" dream?

I forgot to mention earlier before my few previous post that I had a strange dream (well, I've had always have). That was all about winter, night shopping sales (etc...) and the most scariest/weirdest was that the fact that I, along with my other friends (I will not mention who) and my sister were being in this situation where a good-looking guy watch or look after us.

Here what happened in my not-so-sweet-dream. . . .

- This guy whom supposedly to be my, my trusted friends and sister's guardian.

- It was winter in a middle of the night and the place are not like Singapore, in fact I love the place. At that time it terribly busy because of Christmas sales.



I along with my friends K, S, A and my sister are not aloud to go out as what had been warned by the guy shall I call him AA?
But because of the night Christmas sale, S was so curious and pulled me along with her to go shopping but I was in doubt. Without acknowledge my words she pulled me along and when shopping in this boutique. It was so busy. As S was shopping trying some clothing, suddenly my sister popped in front of me out of nowhere and join S for shopping. K went out and warned me not to go out and be home instantly and A was at the back take no notice about the situation. I told K that it was not me but S and my sister. But once everyone was there AA came in the boutique and told all of us to go home. But I ignore him and play with the snow while looking at the dark night sky. As I was doing enjoying my view, people everywhere rushed toward my right side like the world was about to end. Out of curiosity, I follow suit which indeed had been opposed from AA as what he said curiosity killed the cat. But then as I ran forward with the crowd I saw this light on the right as I run forward away from AA. What is the light??

It was in fact my neighborhood with my neighborhood school backyard. I was stunned. For all the time I was in a humongous white tent filled with I-do-not-know-if-its-real night/winter! As I saw some senior citizen enjoying the outdoor sun, I went out from the humongous white tent and then AA scream "don't go out there!"

Then I woke up from my not-so deep sleep. FYI, AA is not bad as my point of view just that he was being protective in a softer kind of way (if you know what I mean). AA was in fact quite attractive in my point of view.
Ohh... I remembered he was wearing red t-shirt and jeans, not so tall, not so short about average.

Weird weird! So sad it was not what it seems it should be.

Now I am going to hit the TV screen.

Signing off.

Techs and gadgets.

Here is another post about me myself and I so be prepare to get bore. This week is the last week for the second term of this semester and I can't wait for holidays!
And in a few days I might be getting my mp3 from a local (Singapore) brand called Creative. I know people think I should get Portable Multimedia Player or Play Station Portable but honestly I don't need certain functions available in these latest gadgets. I don't need multi-function gadget to do its work because its very inconvenient for me. I will be getting the Creative Zen stone plus.



Zen stone plus basically is identical (but slightly larger) with the Zen stone (that is quite similar with the ipod shuffle). However, it has monochromic OLED screen, a built-in FM tuner, a stopwatch (the first ZEN player to have this ability) and a built-in microphone. A built-in speaker version was released later after this version was released. And I might be getting Zen stone plus with built-in speaker.

Okay, the reason why I do not want to get those latest, most popular IN-gadgets is because later on the craze about these tech will possibly die. Onces a very new and latest gadget would be released in the future, I might be getting it and not now.

I think should be hitting my theory books.

Signing off.

Roller coaster and movie.

Its been long since I've had been blogging and gosh a lot of things been happening! Both good and bad. Honestly its like a roller coaster. My life is damn complicated. But no matter what I have to face with patience and with an open heart.

Gosh....

What a roller coaster. This so-called stalker, my crush *blush* (hihi...), school projects and assignments also revisions, problems (urgh...) and "ETC".

First of a month ago watch this interesting movie called It's a boy girl thing.

I must say this is one of those interesting romantic-comedy movie from the states that isn't suck. Most romantic-comedy from the states aren't as compatible like those from Japan, South Korea and Taiwan that I've seen. But basically this is just like those typical american Romantic-Comedy (if you've seen Just my luck or The hot chick etc, you know what I mean) but it's watchable. For remakes movie, I'm really dissappointed. Such as One missed call, The eye, My sassy girl. These remakes aren't the 'boom' like the originals.

But anyways, I'm looking forward for Madagascar 2 movie!

Signing off.

Reminiscing.

I have not update this blog for quite a long time due to some reasons.
Also for all this time I've been busy writing my fiction sometimes I do get writer's block but a true novelist or writer knew what could have been done an they knew how to get idea creatively. I'm not saying that I'm a good writer but those are just one of my thoughts.


Sometimes I felt that it wasn't as cheerful or as fresh as the morning sunlight shining through the window but when I look deeply and understand meticulously every reminiscences flash through my mind and that makes me mirthful eventhough if it happened to be raining, cloudy or even thunderstorm. Basically happy thoughts make me happy.

Signing off.

My big mouth and I.

If only my big mouth would just shut up. T_T"!

Leave it to faith.

Another one of my boring blog entries.

Sigh...

In life you need to be patient. I hope it's easier but it isn't. What else can I say? =]
Sometimes I can't spend time with my loved ones and I must say, it's tough. I never say no to them when they asked to hang out, etc. It's tough now then previous. And when you feel confused what should you do? Tell somebody what might be wrong or keep it to yourself?

I don't know.

But for now I'll do all sorts of crazy things. Whahahaha!

I guess I need to leave it to faith.

Signing off.

Another "day".

Gosh tomorrow would be another day and I'm not ready for tomorrow. Har-har.

Life is tough but we have to face it. Always, I tried to give up but in the end I'm standing. We have to move on and get on with our life.

I feel boring! Gosh....

*30 minutes of silence*

I miss my loved ones. My friends.

Signing off.

My day.

It is 7.43 in the morning and I am still sitting in front of my computer. Since I am not allowed to touch this computer after 12 midnight, why not now?

I know I love beauty products. Taking care of my skin with couple steps of skincare regime, makeup which I wore almost everyday tryong to keep it at its minimal, when time passes by and wrinkle appear on my face, it will appear and there is nothing I can do about it although there is some anti-aging products sold out there. But what going to happen later? Am I gonna look the same except some wrinkle? Or I might look like a crow feet? Or I might look nothing different?
Recently I found out that I have had lost my baby fat (although I ate a lot hopes I could gain my baby fat again which is completely impossible XD!). From there I learned time is precious, we should treasure it.

Also in my friendster account, I have put someone as my 3rd featured friend (whahahaha!!). The reasons are *tut*. Whahahaha! Okay okay I'll be serious. I have had mention in my previous post that the person resembled one of my friend; my trusted friend.

5 hours later....

Just got back from school and I had my worst day today! I had my menses and guess what, I never wore protection. Just "perfect". Top it up with cramp. Isn't it "great"? Now I am covered with sweater and blanket all over me.

Sheesh....

Signing off.

Updated.

It had been quite sometimes that I have not been updating my blog. With exams and revision weeks coming, I need to prepare but I have not yet! *Phewh*All I have been doing is taking care of my niece (that little rascal).

Talking about my niece reminds me about someone mistaken her as my daughter! I know I am 20 but…. I am still young!Honestly it is so embarrassing! Oh well, as long as I lover, it does not matter! =]

Also I had bought my mask at last! It St.ives and I doubt most people are familiar with the product. The one I bought is a mineral clay smells like peppermint or spearmint (maybe just a mint?).
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Gosh! I am so obsessed with beauty and stuff!But I cannot help it because I am already 20 and I need to take good care of my skin like hell!
Also I cannot help of listening to cute songs, drama and movie. (I am listening to Sakuranbo by Ai Otsuka… whahaha!!)

Till then.

Signing off.

What I ate.

I had a plain rice with Chilli fish along with my favourite Chilli flakes!! Yum Yum!!
I add lots of it! *Phewh*

Where did manners had been gone?
Sheeesssh.....
Kids these days..

Signing off.

Some kids just do not understand.

As what written on the title, some kids are just plain clueless on who they are messing up with.
Sometimes if I am being serious to some kids out there, do not blame me.
Honestly I do not know ways to teach them on how to respect elders.
Sometimes when I tried to be nice and soft, they will step on me.
These does not apply to only me, but to others as well.

Gosh, Kids... Grow up please!
What do I mean by 'grow up'?
When they tried to act like they are an adult but the fact is that they are still teenagers and they are damn clueless that they are being bloody immature with a big fat ego (kids.. what do I expect?).
So, grow up!

Also, I do not know that some people would take things seriously. Like onces I had a "crush" on someone, they actually take it seriously such as advice me, etc.
Sheesh...
It was just a simple "crush" people!

Sorry for being so rude here I need to clarify everything here.

Signing off. ^.^'

My blog re-invented.

My blog re-invented.

Now I feel satisfy! *Phewh*

Also... My hair had been good with me lately.

Hmm *pondering* ... Not forgetting my lovely dearest nice Misha.

Signing off.

About me.

NAME: Nasirah♥Bunni.
NICK: Sira♥Bunni.
PERSONALITY: Straight-forward, Weird tempered, Clumsy, Thinks a lot, Hate copycat.
ETHNIC GROUP: Malay-Chinese-Malabaries-Bengali-Boyanese ethnicity.
RELIGION: Islam
LOCATION: Singapore.

HEIGHT: 158 cm.
WEIGHT: 45 kg.
BLOOD TYPE: B.
COMPLEXION: Light ♥ Combination Skin.
HAIR: Dark Asian Brown-black ♥ Curl-Medium.
EYES: Dark Brown.
STYLE: Anything that look sweet, cute and flattering (Sweet Lolita?), refuse to wear anything short no matter what.

HOBBIES: Studying, leisuring, Act cute, Sleeping.
INTEREST: Beauty, Cosmetics, Film, Write (Script, ShortStory, Novel).

PET: Yang Sayang.
FAMILY: Parent, 5 brothers, 1 sister and grandmere.
TALENT: Making clothes, Acting.

♥FAVOURITE ♥

ACTOR/ACTRESS: Leonardo Dicaprio, Ariel Lin
MUSICIAN: Delta Goodrem, Jay Chou, Nuttinbutstringz, Yann Tiersen, James Newton Howard, Frederic Chopin.
THINGS: Anything cute, musical box, charm bracelet, Cosmetics.
FOOD: Mums&sister in laws cook, Japanese&Italian food, anything spicy.
COLOR: Cream, pink chiffon, gold.
FRUIT: Grape.
SIGNS: Star.
WORDS:Bitch, WTH, W.
PHOBIA: Coulrophobia(fear of clown), Tachophobia(fear of speed) and Astrophobia(fear of celestial space).
DISLIKE: Food that is fatty&sweet,Chocolate, Things that is too girlish&complicate, anything related to clown&outer space, Being force to do something I dislike or unwanted, Cliques, ill intention peoples.
LOVES: Yang Sayang AKA Little Nara ~ my cutie cutie little lovebird, Snowie ~ my cutie family pet cockatoo, Hana ~ my sis, Kitty N snow ~ my close friends, Cute cute things, cute little animals, cute-innocent little children, Studying, DBSK.

♥ABOUT ME♥

*Coming Soon.*

DBSK being silly.

DBSK being silly.

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...

I'm so stressed. I can't take the pressure (honestly). I need guidance! A life-saver!

I feel like there are things need to be written here but everything goes blank.

I miss my "loved" ones. *Sobsob*

Signing off.

Anti-Fans.

Anti-Fans.

I'm really disappointed. I've been cyber-bullied by these anti-fans when I did nothing wrong. Luckily I have faith in myself.

I've nothing to say.

Signing off.

Lalala.

Lalala.

Dang...
I got tons of work to do. Now I do not know where to start honestly. I'm feeling very nervous too.
Also, I'm feeling very unsure about something. Anyways, I would like to share something.

Who wore it better???

Signing off.

Yang Sayang.

Yang Sayang.

It would a week since my pet lovebird flew off. Well, not really. She came back. When I got her back, she kiss me on my cheek. I guess she was really happy that I went out looking for her.

I called her "Yang Sayang".

Hehe.

Yang Sayang.

Rainie Yang

Get it??

Signing off.

Training.

Training.

Damn.

I got training today. Also, I'm very sucks in it.

Damn..

I hate training but what should I do. I have to go because there is grading next sunday.

Damn...

Pressure.

Pressure.

I've been thinking too much since early this year. And today, supposed that I should be home by eleven? But then, I decided that I do not want to go home yet. I cannot seems to concentrate on my studies but I will try too. So I went to Kitty's house. Then there is this little girl whom Kitty called her little hamster who cheered me up (along with Kitty herself ^.^). Finally I have had let out my worries. I have had my answer.

...

Signing off

Tired.

Tired.

Gosh I'm damn tired. I've had been studying since I reached home hours ago. I need to brush up my maths. Because I got C for my maths 2 years ago! So this time I need to get either A or B. Further more, I aimed for As or Bs for all modules.

Today, Somebody mistaken me with someone. Thought the person was me, they mocked me yada yada and I was freaking pissed off but tried to keep myself calmed (I bursed later then) but then they found out that they gotten the wrong person.

Who got the last laugh now????

AND further more, one of them who tagged along with those group of hyenas happened to be my ex-collegues and he was my junior!! Also, he is like younger than me!! About my younger brother's age!!! He had no idea who he's messing with!!!!!!!


Signing off.

"Untitled".

"Untitled".

School is okay but... Its sucks! Difficult for me to find a friends!! Since there is only 3 girls in class! I want to die!

I'm gonna cut my hair. Found these 3 photos which I find it cute!

Here is the video I took on my cousins nephew's birthday.

When you have a lot of brothers, this is what happen... Everyday...

Shabree, Danish, my mum and me (the white ghost).

Shabree and Danish (who smiled very widely).

Danish and me.

Mum and Danish.

The whole family.

Signing off...

Making Film Part 10 Mag "Vogue" Photo Sketch


The first part of this video cracked me up!

"Hi, My name is storm."
"Blue team!"
"Hero from blue team!"

Hahahaxx!
What the hell?!!

Signing off.

boredom strikes again.

Boredom strikes again.

School will start next week and I am so nervous! Gosh...

Here's my pairing... I know I am being pathetic but its just a fiction.

Rainie....

Jae Joong....

Isn't he cute? Hehe.. Actually, he reminds me of one of my close friend, let me call her Ai (Ai means love in Japanese. I call her Ai because she is a loving and lovable person! In my point of view). Honestly the both of them are much alike! What I mean is everyone's negative 1st impression towards them, physically the both of them are pretty and fair, attitude-wise and personality are all the same and I am not lying! That is why of all the member, I prefer him because he reminds me of my dearest friend! Haha. Its a lame reason I know but It is the truth.

I love all of my friends. They are like my family.

Hehe...

*Change topic*

I had encounter a person whose an emo but tried to act like a b****. Lets say this person's name is A.

Everyone was (still I doubt) tired of talking with A because A was (and still I doubt) damn emo. If you talked to A before, You could understand me... Really!

Talking to emos in my point of view is okay but to some peoples its quite troublesome. For me, everyone is have feelings (unless if it happened to be psychos). But an emo with a big fat mouth??? "Got to go".

Signing off...

disturbed

Disturbed.

I can't sleep now because I feel disturbed and I don't know why. I kept having the same dream

(actually not the same situation but the same person).

I feel sad (feels like crying), disturbed, angry, etc.

I don't know what the future holds!!

I guess I need to leave it to fate.

Also, I had weird dreams lately. I dreamt of the same person. Either he of his friends (if not him). But it was in different situation but the feelings a bit unstable and really pierce my heart.

I love this photo. Cute.

Rainie Yang whom I paired up with Kim Jae Joong in my Fanfic.

Untitled.

Untitled.

Been thinking a lot these days.

And now I am starting to type like L. (Like eww...)

I drink a lot of coffee too. (No wonder I felt weak these days)

My eyes is about to burst but I do not want to shut it or rest.

Witches scares me. <- Sounds lame. I know...

The one you can see by your own naked eyes are those you watch on television (Such as Sabrina the teenage witch, etc)

The one invisible are those witches bitches.

You know what I mean.

Some pieces of advice I could give for those who had encounter person who have interest in you,

Accept them if you seriously, truly do have interest in them sincerely want to be friend with them and not for fun or for the sake of their looks.

You might having fun playing with their feelings but them?

If it was me, I tell them off straight-forwardly if I do not want too.

If its a good-looking guy -> I think you got the wrong person.

Ugly and pervert guy -> I hate perverts.

Handsome but pervert -> You got the wrong person.

The guy my friend more like a brother -> Uh, NO.

But what if they say "But, I know you?"

Simple. Just hanged up (If on the phone).

Because why? Treat it as a prank calls.

Signing off.

Life sucks

Life sucks.

I cannot pursue my dream. Cannot go for school that I want. I am like a robot. But I will burst anytime.

Now I only got My Noo-Noo. (Acually her name is Sayang "little Nara")

I love my Noo-Noo. My Sayang.

Nothing much to type on. Telling anyone would it change the situation?
I rather keep it to myself as a secret and let myself burst.
Maybe if I burst then this problem could change.

My Noo-Noo...

Valentine.

Valentine.

Yup, on valentine's day I celebrate it with my friend Renuka. Hehe.

Well, not really. Haha. What I mean is that I spent my day with her on 14th feb.

I rather spent the day with my friends and family than someone I do not know.

Hmm.

The valentine gift from cutie Renuka.

The rose from cutie Renuka. Hahax.

How cute can this be?

Signing off. (^.^)v

Storyline

Storyline.

It's official. I am not going to enroll Harriet. My dream shattered. My passion and dreams become ashes. I have no idea what to do in the future, what I would do for my career. What is my career anyway.

I want to go to school. Never wish to be stuck at home. T.T
Life now sucks too.

By the way, on my previous post, I had introduced to my first fan fiction titled:
"My dongsaeng, my little angel."
Dongsaeng=little sister/little brother.

Character:

Kim Jae Joong: A doctor, son to a millionaire father, Kim Dong Hwan. Still looking for his long-lost little sister and mother. A bit of a spoilt brat, thinks that he owned all the girls just because he had the pretty face. But he's actually kind at heart. Things changed after he met Geun Young.

Moon Geun Young: A timid, quiet girl who lives with her strict, protective mother. Struggling with her poor life with her mother to earn living and to pay off her university fees. She does not know the meaning of love. And also clueless about her family history.

Rainie Yang: Geun Young's bestfriend who eventually falls for Jae Joong. She was always there protecting Geun Young.

Kim Ki Bum: Admires Geun Young alot but was rejected by her. He still pursue her although been rejected by her. and taught her the meaning of love.

Sypnosis: Moon Geun Young, was separated from her father and brother (Jae Joong) with her birth mother who disappeared from the kim's mansion and raised her living in an ordinary life. 20 years later, both siblings (JaeJoong and Moon Geun Young) met unexpectedly by the broken heart gold pendant.

The gold pendant are unique as it was made especially for both siblings. It is called the brother and the sister. Comes with a pair of bracelet the parents.

You need to check it out. plus do leave a comment!

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Bored.

Check it out.

Really bored right now. I am slightly relieved that my cousin sister will help me appeal for polytechnic if I am unable to enroll there.

Right now, I am updating my fan fiction. check it out.
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/bunnie

Busy right now. Got to go. Night.

Blanked.

Blanked.

You should be thankful if you be able to fulfill your dreams. I have dreams but I cannot fulfill it.

The reason: Forbidden.

You know how it hurts me. To be the shadow. The puppet like a moving chisel. I tried so hard to remove the wall but its just too hard and sealed securely. I cannot escape but to remain here as a puppet.

I cannot escape...............

sObs0b................


Something that I am able to do. Is purely forbidden. How can I achieve and be successful if something that I am talented, something I poured deeply on is absolutely forbidden.



Being over-stressed and pressurized by family problems and for my future myself. The feeling is difficult. I want to die for being forced and forbidden like this!
And honestly, it took me hours for me to write this whole post because I cannot stop crying.

I can only fulfill my dreams in my dream. I cannot do anything that I want. So do not blame me if I am trying to commit suicide.

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What a busy weeks!

I had been so busy therefore I am unable to keep updates on this blog always. I have had been busy lately (work and online school) until I have always miss my sleep and also the bus. Not forgetting improper meal (in fact, I did not take my meal except Tim Sum and bread). Until I started to fall sick last two days ago. Now I'm getting slightly better and need to take good care of my health. I'm getting skinnier and gosh how terrible it is to miss work! But I still have the flu though.
Few days ago either, I furnished these small parrots cage and I feel happy about it! Look how cute it looks! There is two huts, left is the old one and right is the one I just bought (its for lovebird to lay eggs actually so its meant for my little Nara! hahax!). The middle is the nest for them to sit and lay around. And the blue bowl is the bathroom! Cute is it?! I doubt I would buy the swing.

My birds new furnished house. I'm try my best to make it look better and comfy also best for them.

Next week is my graduation day and I'm feeling very nervous! Below is what I will be wearing.
White blouse, $32. Blue dress, $79.
Plus I will be wearing it with Grey skinny jeans (hope it does not look so obvious like jeans) and white ballet flats. Hope it goes well and hope people would not notice me wearing jeans! Gosh I'm nervous!

The outfit I will be wearing with Grey skinny jeans and White ballet flats.

I have been feeling down for no reason. Everyone is growing up. My friends especially Kitty are going to settle down. Me? Still schooling ( actually waiting to apply for polytechnic if not private institute). I want to grow up and settle down too. Some more, I want to study in Korea or Japan! But my parents especially my mom will not let me. I need guardian at least my brother. Or alse go and get marry then I would be able to go. Other alternative? She told me, "Under my grave!"
But she onces asked me if the whole family are able to go on vacation, where would I want to go? Is it korea? I denies it but the fact is that I really want to go Korea (or Japan).

I need a rest because I am working tomorrow. Nite nite!