Sad, Pathetic and habit.

I have been under alot of stress for the past few days. No, weeks. I do not know how I am able to make it or not.
Been crying alot, not eating much as I would normally do. If fact, I had one meal a day to almost snacks(I eat Roasted Seaweed only for snacks, Haha). I also did ridiculous things.

But anyways I would like to show some pathetic photos of me. I bet everyone ever did pathetic faces yeah? I do not know why I do this habit of mine which shown two
photographs below.




Other than that, there is this habit of mine I have been doing since I could barely remember perhaps the time I began to walk when I was a toddler? I fold my first toe on top of my second toe like photo shown below.



Other than that, I enjoy watch Children's program In the night garden. Ha ha.

Signing off.

Babbling....

My brain is cramming, need to start opening up theory book and study despite the fact that I am procastinating. Yes, I admit that I am not a smart-ass genius and I am slow in catching up be it in everything.

I cannot believe it when I read The New Paper last week on how some parents' mindset....on ITE; ITE students show no interest in studies so that is the reason why they do not want their children studying in ITE so that their children will not get influence by ITE students and O'levels are much better than Nitec certificate? ITE certification are nothing, yeah? Thank you very much for teaching your children to be an arrogant/cocky. PERFECT example, yeah?

Okay, I am babbling....

Signing off.

My pet, hers and those blemishes.

Couple of days ago I bath my pet lovebird and she loves it when the water is lukewarm not cold. She hates it when its cold.
After shower, I do not know why but her favorite spot seems to be...you know where.



She snuggled at her favourite spot in my palm trying to keep herself warm and comfortable. Other than that...


My sister's pet turtle cuddle beside me already asleep. So cute!

And my blemish skin progression... Hmm... See my blemish? I cannot help but to squeeze it!


Even with makeup on, blemishes on my face is quite visible. So I went to TheFaceShop to purchase exfoliator (I have not exfoliate for about 2 weeks?) and the salegirl recommend me Flebeaute White Crystal Diamond Microderm Exfoliator once she saw my face with blemishes.


^Flebeaute White Crystal Diamond Microderm Exfoliator.

Sighh... Im so sad....

Signing off.

Back in 2007

Back in 2007, I cut my hair short and I love it. Love it to the point that some people mistaken me being a boy. Haha. But as time passed by I want to grow out my hair. So I got my haircut at different hair salon. My hair turns out horrible. I was devastated and felt like hiding in the closet. Nevertheless, my BFF was there to support me.

I use hair wax to hide the split ends and damaged. Also put on more makeup. Sigh.. But now everything's okay and I am thinking of cutting my hair short again. Should I?

Signing off.

New spec.

My new spec that cost 99SGD. Honestly it is slightly smaller for my face. No, my face is too big for my new spec. Oh, my degree extracted by -50. Yipee~
Okay, okay I did put on foundation on my face and please excuse the lightning.

I did mention in my twitter that my skin were breaking out. Reason was? My previous clensing oil, cleansing foam and moisturiser. Now I have had changed to new product, TheFaceShop and my skin has cleared except for scars.

Above picture was my skin cleared up except for scars. Lesson learned: Choose a right product for your skin type and DO NOT PICK OR POKE YOUR BLEMISH AND PIMPLE NOT EVEN WHITEHEAD like a did.

School Term, Tagboard and Holidays

Finally term will be becoming after 3 weeks holiday. Project need to be submitted, presentation, exams and tests. Oh my, will I be able to make it to polytechnic? Or should I pursue private part-time study yet working full-time job? My mother fully reject my ide of kill two birds with one stone as she understand her second daughter for not be able to handle pressure. Hmm, I will try my best though. Skin breaking out (after many years) now I have switched from Bio-essence to TheFaceShop and I am quite skeptical TheFaceShop skincare works for me effectively (okay, I am babbling).

It must winter now.....

Kitty, my bestest bestfriend in the world!

And I am looking forward for holidays. Holiday starts already. (^.^)
By the way, I have already set up tagboard. Any vulgars, hate comment WILL be deleted. But just in case I find hate comment utterly foolish interesting enough to entertain myself, I might leave it out.

<3 Signing off..

Friend.

I did promise (2 months ago?) that I would be posting an upcoming post but....

But anyways, many things had changed for the past few years. Friends comes and goes. Sometimes I do not even know if I am a good friend or not. Am I? Or not? I feel that I am alone. Eventhough my friend would say no BUT I FEEL SO. I am NOT saying that I need a companion sooner, NO. BUT I feel a GAP between my friend(s) and I. I feel like breaking down bit by bit. I do not know anymore if they are busy, extremely busy or I AM JUST THE PAIN IN THE ASS. Due to this reception, they might think "all headscarves girls are the same. they are hypocrite and backstabber". FIRST OF ALL, THIS MEANS THAT YOU DO NOT REALLY KNOW ME AT ALL. YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT I HAVE THIS SO-CALLED "ANTI" WITH HYPOCRITES AND BACKSTABBER. I HAVE BEEN BACKSTABBED BEHIND MY BACK MANY TIMES SINCE I WAS A CHILD AND NOW I AM A FULLY GROWN WOMAN; I AM USED TO IT. SO HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT I BACKSTABBED AND A HYPOCRITE? AS A FRIEND YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT I AM A VERY HONEST PERSON AND IF I DO NOT LIKE SOMETHING ABOUT YOU, I'LL USE SARCASM OR SHUT MY MOUTH. BUT SO FAR, THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT YOU THAT I HATE. SADLY, YOU DO NOT APPRECIATE MY TRUST AND FRIENDSHIP. THAT IS FINE. FRIEND COMES AND GOES.

So this is a shoutout to all my friends. I am truly sorry that I am not a good friend.

procrastinated

I could not remember when I update my blog. Nevertheless I could update this rusty blog of mine by tomorrow and 'topic of the day' is my "new" room also more photos. (:

Its nearly the end of fasting months....

Signing off.

Tanned.

Went for swimming yesterday because sis insisted on going for swimming and sun-tanning (I am not a fan of sun-tanning) a couple of days before. I thought, "maybe I could learn how to swim". I drowned onces for not knowing how to swim and it is a nightmare; I thought I was going to die!
For your information, I love my fair skin so I slapped on SPF 130 sunscreen every 30 minutes and STILL I LOOKED TANNED! Actually not very tanned to the point I looked like roasted. Actually my tan is not that bad but I hope I could regain my fair skin back.

I heard Lee Teuk of Super Junior is having depression. I hope he is doing well. Life isn't fair after all I guess. You see, when I am facing problems and pressures (ps. I could not handle pressure, get stress and worried easily), I will always bare things in mind which is "this is just a test from God and He knows and will always know my strength and up till where my strength is; limit of my strength". What I mean is that, there is strengths in every of us that we do not know. Some of us gave up in everything thinking there is no chance in life. We need to look forward and think for our loved ones and for ourselves. I know it is extremely tough to look forward because I have been there before like many time! And there were times where I could not look up to anyone. But a times I can looked up for my sister and bestfriend. Love someone for merely 2 years? No one knows except for my readers!!

PS. I want my fair skin back!!!!

Signing off.

Pressure strikes.

I truly do not know what I want to do in my life. I feel that I am losing bit by bit. I do not want to sound like as if I am grabbing attention but honestly I do not know what I want to do in my life. Luck is not in my side anyways.

- Getting into the course that is completely opposite of my main interest. I could no longer cope it. :'(
- People do not appreciate your sincerity. They make use of it for their own sake. Same as people do not appreciate your friendship, they make use of it for their own sake. BETRAYER.
- When I thought he was the right person, I was about to give my everything. But to know he is not I was crushed. I pretend not to know that he is not the right one finally I get what I deserved. In his mind this love is just a puppy love but for me it is not.
- Due to the reception I mention above, being a stubborn person I learned that I could not forget him for merely 2 years. 2 years of grieving and occasionally shedding tears (You see, when I love someone, I love him forever but when it is over, my love for him can never be easily replaced). Now, I am afraid of starting new; I am afraid of being into new relationship. Sigh.
- Also this person who taught me what is love and what it feels like to be loved, told everyone (actually not everyone because I do not have prove but he did told someone) that I fall for him first but the truth is it was him who fall for me which is in fact a puppy love (I discovered it recently after much thoughts) and I have proves and witnesses. Sigh, I am extremely disappointed with him. Only GOD knows the TRUTH.
- Everyone seems to blame me for tragic/incident I never do or unintended to do. I feel like breaking into pieces.

Life is not fair after all. Sigh.

Signing off.

New Obsession. 2NE1.

Gosh... I did mention in my very old blog post that I was addicted to DBSK. My new addiction/obsession is non other than,
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Rookie girl group 2NE1!

Oh my I have never been so captivated by girl group my whole life (Yes... Not even Wondergirls).
These girls are very talented and their music, videos, performance (especially their debut performance) are such a boom!
They are like, female version of BigBang. Honestly I never fond of girl group until 2NE1 debut. Check out their debut performance by clicking the link below.
2NE1 debut performance.

I know I have been a bit slow about this since I was away many weeks before. Nevertheless I already knew they goinf to debut soon before and I doubt that they going to be huge once they debut.

Also just for gag Park Kyung Lim, Jang Nara and Lee Soo Young does a parody of 2NE1.
3NE1 - Fire.

Signing off.

Rather "weak".

I was trying to post an entry about my Overseas trip which include my written diary entry AND my audio "diary" entry. BUT when I tried to upload the 1st audio, it failed. WHY? Sigh... Or should I type on instead of posting it in audio. Well, the audios are more realistic than what is written. Oh well, I will try to fix it.

Speaking of overseas, honestly I realise that I am rather weak. I could neither withstand the coldness nor the super hotness during the summer time at the beautiful country. I must say weather in Singapore are more stable. Neither too hot nor too cold and it is not too windy at all. Just nice except for the humid. The overbearing humid make me feel like taking more shower than my normal shower routine supposed to be.
But anyways, I remembered when I was younger the first time I went to a village in Johor, I had a lot of mosquito bites to the point where my part of my skin bitten my mosquito were swollen. My mother was shock. But maybe because I was not used to living in village.
Then few years ago (I think in the year 2007) I took an effort to participate in a blood donation programme. I was extremely excited and happy because of all four of us (include myself and a few classmates), I was eligible to donate my blood despite the fact that I do not have enough blood (as what had been mention by the nurses). But after I did donated, resting on the "hospital bed", I started to feel nausea, fainting and my head was spinning and I could not see properly because everything in my eyes were almost blurry. I tried to speak or scream but I could not because I was too weak to even speak or to tilt my head. Until a female doctor who set her eyes upon me lip-sync a sentence that I could lip-read "Are you okay?". I frowned as signal that I was not okay and barely mumble "No". She then got up from her seat and make a fast big path towards me while telling the other nurses that I was not okay and help me out. Everyone who was there were shocked.
Many weeks ago I was on overseas, the weather was extremely cold. Everyone knows I could not withstand coldness so that night I had a fever. My body was heating like crazy, I could not get up an by the next day my whole body turns red. Everyone was stunned. And on the same trip, I did went to the theme park. After the third ride, I had nausea, got sick and vomitted non-stop for the whole night until the next day still my body felt weak due to the vomitting and my stomach was fully empty. How lame am I?

I know people might think that I am weak but at least I do not have weak heart? Hehe... How I wish I am physically strong enough. Oh well, I am blessed with what I have now. (^.^)

Signing off.

Short update.

I logged into my Google/Blogger account since I thought maybe I should update but right now at the moment my head is completely blank and I have lost what I wanted to type on.....

*thinking*

*5 mins later*

From tomorrow onwards I will begin my revisions therefore I doubt that perhaps I would sparingly update my blog. But still, I will not abandon this blog of mine.

The truth is someone actually pissed me off to the point that I am about to burst out like a mad chimpanzee at this moment right now. If it was to be myself on the past or shall I say few years ago I would have scream, curse, swear, shout, fight like a maniac anyone could have imagine. I would have broken his bones and make him cry like I did to ***. But you see, I am already 21; a mature young woman AND since the beginning of last year I decided I should change to BECOME A BETTER PERSON. NO, A BETTER YOUNG WOMAN because WHY? later on I am probably going to have a husband and childrens; family AND I have already told myself earlier not to throw booms and explosion to others no matter how bad or bloody filthy heart he they possessed. So why not, leave him and his filthy BRAIN lives in the realm of kiddyland? And did I tell that I smelt jealousy from this Basket? Oh my, he should go for a sex-change. Because I thought only girls get jealous.

"IGNORANCE IS A BLISS". The phrase I mentioned on this previous sentence that have had always been floating around my ears and eyes from either people I knew or not seems to be true.

Signing off.

My lame reason and my fav blogger.

Why, oh why???

Is it me or is it my skin getting darker? And I am feeling weak and weary. 10 hours of sleep or so could then awakes my body and make myself feel fresh. I am so tired!
Anyways I received a parcel and it was from MagicalTannsu. I bought brushes from her blogshop. Honestly her service is amazing!

Soft Pink Stippler.

Merle Norman Authentic Kabuki Brush.


Some of the things I had learned over the past few weeks, be patience and STOP BEING KIASU.

And yes. I am getting chubbier after got back to Singapore. I need to cut down my food intake.

Signing off.

Gifts part 1.

Time does fly really fast. I would like to share things that was given to me as a gift that I used but over the time as it was about the get worn out, I kept it and still in my closet.

(PS. click to enlarge)

First of all, the mug I received for christmas....

I got this from when celebrating christmas with co-worker. See Daniel, I still keep it! Hehe.


Some gifts from Diana....

Pencil case given for my 18th birthday from Diana.

Red clutch from her too.

Perlini Silver's bracelet given from her too on my 20th birthday. Still new like always. hehe.

Comoditee wallet from nurul J for my 20th birthday.

INK bacgpack in brown colour from my sister, Hana.

INK Brown bag and Elizabeth Arden provocative woman perfume from my 1st older brother.

MiniToon rose???? Its a fake plush rose, handmade given by Renuka. I miss her! And there is note written inside the mini envelope. hee..

What was written, nothing special but meaningful to me. Did I told you that this is my valentine gift? On that day we actually celebrate together having lunch together! Hihi.. Miss those days..

That is not the end of it. There is alot of gifts given to me that I still treasure.

Signing Off.

"Shop[p]in"

I think I am going to be broke. Seriously I dislike window shopping because somehow I would end up buying a thing or two of an unimportant things. When I go to the mall most probably to survey things OR to buy things that is important. I guess I am not an average girl. But IF I feel like going shopping, I rather go alone as I feel I need personal space. Nowadays, it pissed me off when my shopping partner cannot figure out if she/he need an unnecessary thing. I mean, "you don't need it why bother to buy???!?"

But anyways, I went to Watsons because I heard Silkygirl had their own BB Cream and yes they did! I did not buy though because I have already had two and planning to buy those from Beauty Credit since I am most comfortable with their product (I had their liquid foundation, powder pact, cheek color/blusher, Sunblock).

Things I had bought today are:

- TheFaceShop cheek brush (Look rather angled and flat than a normal blush brush)
- TheFaceShop Home Aesthetic Pack Hydrating Milk Pack
- Beauty Credit Lovely Cheek Color (Peach Girl)
- Beauty Credit Whitening Sun Cream SPF39 PA++ ( I got another free prior to purchase this product)

Now, I need to save up my money. Oh, did I mention that I love Beauty Credit Blusher?! (^.^)

Until Then.

Signing Off.

Oh spare me.

Yes. I got in Singapore yesterday approximately 5.30 pm. Within 3 weeks I do have rather short sweet memories that do stings me once in a while when remembers it. What is left now is pain that will eventually fade off.
I have nothing more to say as those dilemma still fresh in my mind. Honestly I am about to break into pieces and no one ever have the TENDENCY to spare me.

Signing off.

I want to go there.

I would like to share few photos of places that captivated me not long ago while googling.

Bremen - Germany

Venice - Italy

Signing off.

Roasted.

Two days ago, I was roasted under the sun struggling with my Tennis skills which is extremely disastrous. Sports and Wellness could not be any better than getting myself sweat in this hot and humid weather. With my makeup melting...damn...should have been wore Mineral makeup instead of BB cream...but anyways, I looked tad darker than the actual light skintone and due to the reception I did actually wore my so-called lousy sunscreen after for how many days/weeks I had not been wearing that crappy sunscreen.

Sigh...

Next week...few more days left and I am going to be missing my boring life in Singapore. And on the 9th of June with be my Birthday! How I wish my loved ones would be there on my birthday...

Signing off.

Tag: Getting to know you.

Rules: Take a picture of yourself RIGHT now. No primping or preparing. Just snap a picture. Load the picture onto your blog. Tag some people to play.

I tagged everyone who bumped into this post.
Beware, you will about to see my barenaked face. It might looked scary for some people.

Q: What made you choose your blog?
I create this blog more than 2 years ago. Purpose of this blog are for my friends and for me to share my thoughts on something. Something that is anything. Harhar. But basically for me to write out my thoughts (since I love writing and typing).

Q: What's your actual name?
The name given by my mother that I love, "Nasirah" which means Protector.

Q: Do you have any nicknames?
Well, when I was younger, I do not really have a nickname but that name is sort of an another name given by my uncle. And honestly I hate that name because I feel like a guy everytime people called me by that name. The nickname is "Kamaliah".
Aside of that, closed ones and friends called me by my actual name OR Sira. Strangers called me Bunni.

Q: Apart from the obvious make up / beauty hobby, what other hobbies do you have?
Writing, researching, reading mainly non-fiction, art and literature.

Q: What do you do?
I am an electronics engineering student mainly in computer and networking field. I also do some writing currently on a fan fiction for the purpose to improve my writing skills but in the future I might write and come out with a novel.

Q: What would you like to do?
I have always interest in getting a job in psychology, psychiatrist. BUT I think it is utterly impossible for to be in that sort of job due to the course I am in. So for job-wise is IT consultant. For part-time "leisure" maybe writing fictions. The truth is I love acting. I do not know why but I just love performing. Maybe because of my passion for art.

Q: Tell us something embarrassing, but that you love doing?
Practise myself in the mirror? Haha! Practise my posture especially face expressions and also speech.

Q: Tell us a little something that we don't already know about you.
Hmm... Well, my answer would probably sort of be the same with Icyabstract. I am not into hunky-tanned-hulk "sporty" looking guys. I bet alot of girls like these type of guys but not me.
But somehow I am attracted to feminine-looking guys. Soft-spoken (not bapok or Ah qua!) guys.
Celebrities such as Ben Adams of british boyband A1, Baim Wong an indonesian actor and Kim Jae Joong of Korea's boyband DBSK.
Edit: Oh wait, Ben Adams and Baim Wong do have some muscles (o.O""). But definity across between Kim Jae Joong of DBSK and Kim Kyu Jong of SS501.

Q: What achievement are you most proud of?
I was once the most improve student and got a prize for that title. And also during the time I was working part-time as a waitress, I was one of the highest overall once back then when I was taking one of their test in order to get promoted. I got 90/120. I was among the highest!

Q: What do you most like about yourself?
Honestly I have no idea what I like about myself. Hmm.. Maybe being able to help my friends if they need help; I tried to help with the best I can. Also I have this habit I had since young which is I tend to be defensive on what is right, towards anyone who deserve. Say a friend get bullied, I would snapped back, threaten or mostly burst out in anger towards the bully.

Q: What would you change about yourself if you could?
My hot-temperedness. I can easily get pissed.

Q: If you could have anything in the world (that doesn't cost any money), what would you want?
Happiness for the people around me.

Why Woobin is my favourite character.

Why is it Woobin portrayed by Kim Joon is my favourite character?
There are a lot of reasons why. In other versions such as the manga, Taiwanese version, Japanese version and the Korean version.
Manga, Japanese, Taiwanese version I prefer Ximen (Sojirou/Yijung).
But for Korean version I rather choose Woobin (Mei Zuo/Akira).

WHY Woobin??????

First of all I have to salute all the actors from Boys Over Flowers Korean Version for portraying their respective characters tremendously.

But why Woobin??????
I might sound shallow here but the truth is he do not look like a pervert although he looked like a gangster, badboy look.

Yijung potrayed by Kim Bum supposed to the to cold playboy. I have actually like his character until at one scene he did the 5 second killer move, I went (o.O) ....

I shall stop talking crap.

Signing off.

Him..

The one who cooks..
His eyes I am about to forget..
And those smile I can never forget..
And heart-shaped face I remembers..
Not-so-tallness I am okay with..

The only person I ever love..
The only person that taught me how life can be lonely without love..
The only person who bravely confort his likeness to me while others like him kept it silent..

When he says promises that I believe and have a trust on..
His promises and sincerity that made me love him..

Off to College.

I am going off to College later on. And I cannot wait for 4 more weeks! Or is it 3 more week?

Update.

It is past midnight and I should be in bed by now. My eyes are so tempted to sleep. But I feel unease (I am not trying to be emo here. Haarhar).
My GPA point dropped and I will not mention how much. Gosh, This is so embarassing but at the same time I feel like I should be blamed.
But anyways, I wonder why did I always have a bad cramp. Is it normal? My back ache so badly not only that, the whole muscle in my body cramp like God-only-knows.
Also... My mother-tongue had gotten worse.

OUT.

I just got back from the mall. Went to library with a FRIEND. And a few days ago I went to the mall to watch the unborn



I don't know about others who had watched this movie but frankly speaking this is such a lame movie. Doesn't make sense at all and I feel stupid watching this movie; well my mistake.
Before went to the movie, I went to Beauty Credit Amk Hub outlet and bought Beauty Credit Lovely Powder Pact Moist. But since there is promotion going on, I got a free liquid foundation by Beauty Credit; Beauty Credit Lovely Q10 Foundation Moist SPF 25.

Signing off.

So What

While reading of my favourite beauty blog (icyabstract.onsugar.com)'s most recent post, I decided to do the tag she did because it look fun. hehehehe.... ^^,


1. Put your MP3 player/ iPod/ itunes library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" You say?
My Heart Froze - A&T.

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Wind It Up - Gwen Stefani.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
In The Ayer - Flo-Rida ft. Will.i.am.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Day Dream - Anyband.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Amigo - SHINee.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Jangan Pernah Berubah (Don't Ever Change) - ST12.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Missing - Evanescence.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Pieces Of Me - Britney Spears.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
The Love You Want - Penny Dai.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Paint In Black - Marilyn Manson.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Mirror Mirror - M2M.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Supergirl - Crystal.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
You Want Me Too - Sarah Mclachlan.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Hey Girl - DBSK.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Astarfigrullah - Marshanda.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
You Spin Me Right Round - Marilyn Manson.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Clumsy - Fergie.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
La La La - Se7en.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Teman Tapi Mesra (Friend But Intimite) - Ratu.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
So What - Pink.


Tagging to everyone!
But Honestly I do not really listen some above (although it is quite global... Har Har...) especially my mother-tongue's songs. But I do got to say that I am currently ADDICTED to

- Rule by Ayumi Hamasaki,
- My Heart Froze by A&T (A'st1 & T-max),
- Because I'm Fool by SS501,
- Starlight Tears by Kim Yoo Kyung,
- You Spin Me Right Round by Marilyn Manson and,
- Supermassive Blackhole by Muse.

last but not least, I want to watch Dragonball Evolution!! Nak nak nak.. Nak jugak!

S-H-E-D-D-I-N-G.

It has been how many weeks since I have had last updated this blog. Sometimes when I feel like updating this blog, I feel like there is no privacy. Now is the time I feel like updating.
But anyways now is the beginning of holiday after weeks at College and many days revising and memorizing for exams. Okay the truth is, I do not really revise for exams. I know SOMEONE wish me fail for this course I am enroll in therefore let it be. I mean, they want me fail right? Let them "pass" with flying colors.
Honestly I am wasting myself pondering and shedding tears with "people" as my viewers and I like a lost kitten just because of this baboon, sheep and pig!
And I am truly sorry for those who was worrying about me.

Signing off.

Cinderella story.

I am Cinderella and I am trapped in a prison. Could anyone save me from the wicked stepmother along with both wicked stepsisters? I think it is impossible.

I want to go to the ball but I am not aloud. I have to stay in this prison. I want to go out and see the world but I am trapped in this prison.

Someone please help me.

Tired tired tired.

I am feeling a bit lazy at the moment and I know that I have not been updating for so long.
Final exam for this semester is coming and I need to prepare for revisions (Which I have not yet!)
And since I have to do a revisions, I do not know if I might be able to keep my health in good shape be it my internal organ or external organ which is the largest organ. But I do know that I could not resist indulging foods due to my every months "thing". Those "thing" could come in handy because I could indulge in food without gaining weight. Heee....

My beauty blog, I really want to keep update but right here I have things going on and I hope I could update.

Okay, I look ridiculous with absolutely no makeup on in the photo on the left but just trying to show how hard I tried to maintain my external largest organ in good shape. My biggest indulge that is coffee I tried to skip and avoid by switching to Green Tea and Hot Cocoa made from Cocoa Powder since Green Tea contain anti-oxidant and Cocoa Powder contain 3 times anti-oxidant.

My body is dead tired and I need to go to the bathroom.

Signing off.

After school rock.

My friend (or should I say close friend/ best friend?) and I went to the salon that my friend whenever she wants a haircut. I did went there for a haircut (but later on decided not to have a haircut due to some reason.. But I did get my haircut, its a long story...).

On the other hand, my dear friend did had her hair nicely permed.

How about my hair? Well, while my hair is still on recovery and doing tremendously well although I do need to constantly condition, moisturize, treat (treatment/mask/serum) and protect my hair (also style them.. hehehe...), I did not put on much hope on how my hair could turn out to become but surprisingly it look amazing! I love how she did my hair.

I love love looovve Pantene 3-minute miracle hair treatment!! And I will continue using it.

And I need to get some styling product. Hmmm....

I am really tired and I need rest and sleep. I wish I could continue with blogging but till then.

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What am I supposed to say? I am trying to keep myself busy despite the fact that I am not. Ha Ha.

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signing off.

Stress bug.

Recently I have been emo-ing for couples of things. I know people do not care about what had been going through in my life right now but I do want to share some of my thoughts.

What is it has been bothering me?

If I say College...

Revisions for this upcoming test on the first week of my College 4th term? I have not been hitting the books yet although I SHOULD BE.

Dang... I should be but there IS something that has been bothering me. This means that it is not about College (or shall I say revisions to simplify).

But perhaps it is about my social life in College?

In fact, I do not bother since I did try to keep myself a distance from other students in College; try not to expose myself to other students like I did previously in college of different area that cause myself in troubles by some ill-behavior students over there such as betraying friends, bitching, having a grudge on others even towards me a not so attractive (according to my opinion).


Basically my social life in College is perfectly fine and as what I want it to be as.

My family?

They are fine. Nothing that I could share about. They are "fine" as always.

Friends perhaps...

I miss them a lot. Hmm...

The truth is that I feel like I am about to lose them slowly.

But maybe because we have not been meeting up and we should, maybe one day when everybody are free from their work and important task.

I feel like I owe a friend and another. A friend whom taught me what true friendship means and indirectly show me that patience is what every ladies should possessed. But what did I gave her. *Emo-ing* Ha ha.

Hmmm... I miss my friends especially the closest one.

However, everyone have important everyday tasks to be done. We have our things that should be done.

Ah! I suddenly remembered something. If any of you have read my post that is more that 2 years ago...

Wow... Time passes by so fast. Remembering about such situation makes my stomach growl and sometimes I feel like passing out. How foolish can I be? Honestly I do not want to think about it but the thing is I cannot forget it no matter what and how I do, it seems to be glued into my brain memory. He was the first person that my feelings went very deep into my heart. When he called it off, it physically hurt so much that I feel I almost lose oxygen in my body. Words cannot describe I it truly hurt.

Dang... It's raining. The wind is inviting me to my pillow and I am getting sleepy.

Signing off.

16 random fact about me.

I decided to do random fact about me after seen icyabstract blog on hers random fact since she tagged for everyone. Here it goes.


1. I am a mixed of Malay-Chinese-Malabaries-Bengali-Boyanese ancestries. Therefore, do not be surprise for the fact that I have medium curly hair with my fair complexion and etc (but since I am living in Singapore, I have slightly Tanned skin).

2. I am currently studying in a field of electronics engineering. But my actual real interest is Art, Literature and Theater.

3. I am an animal lover. I cry when I saw discovery channel or news of animals been abuse or killed. I will anything to save animal even I have to touch pigs or dogs.

4. I hate chocolate so much but I do consume Cocoa due to its health benefits. Not only that, any sweet and fat related food product including dairy product make me vomit. Spice is the thing for me. Hur hur!

5. I have natural curl eyelashes (due to my mixed ancestries) and some people do not believe that my sister and I have natural curl eyelashes included our high school/secondary school teacher whom wrote our name in the school’s discipline act for wearing cosmetics (but the fact is that we never did!!!!!!!!!!!!) and she even called our parent for not believing! My mother came up to my school explains to them that we inherited our eyelashes from her. Means it is natural.

6. Because of my passion for Art, Literature and Theater, I did write Fiction stories. I will one day produce a Novel and hope to be a Novelist cum Scriptwriter. I am an aspiring writer and I got these genes from my mother.

7. I love to study and it is one of my hobbies. Aside from those above, I love cracking my brain with mathematics, calculus and puzzles which is the reason why I got into engineering field. How nerdy am I?

8. Most people thought that I am smart but the truth is that I have short-term memory meaning I forget things that I learn easily but I do have picture memory meaning I remembered thing through picture views.

9. Everyone knows that I love love LOVE Korean boy-band Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK). What was the actual reason that I love them so much? I was deeply heartbroken and was still waiting like waiting for the sky to drop for more than a year for the person who taught me how to love. That is when I began to love and get addicted to Korean boy-band DBSK for the reason to forget about the person I used to care and love the most. Basically, without this Korean boy-band around in the entertainment industry, it would be merely impossible for me to forget about him.

10. I had my 1st love and I did date but I neither had a boyfriend nor my 1st kiss taken from some frogs. I believe 1st kiss should reserve uniquely for my husband (if I have one!).

11. I used to be in a Gothic scene such as wearing all black including a black jacket along with thick black eyeliner but as the same time I tried to keep my cuteness with me. Later on I found out that there is such thing as Gothic Lolita!

12. I listen to Alternative songs including Alternative Pop, Alternative Rock and Alternative Metal. I also listen to Gothic rock and my favorite would definitely be Marilyn Manson. In reality, I hate Reggae and Hip-Hop so much prior to a stalker who used to stalk me did opened these sorts of songs along as he stared over me like a delusional BUT thank you very much to the person who taught me how to love, I did not hate Reggae and Hip-Hop anymore.

13. I dislike guys who smoke, drink and clubbing. For guys who possess as mention on the previous sentence can forget 100% about pursuing me because I will not bother to entertain these kinds even though there were supposely to be the last man on earth. Although I do not have any specific type of guy I like simply because I do not judge book by its cover, I can be quite picky in choosing a guy for me.

14. I can be sarcastic, straight-forward and brutally honest when it comes to speaking. Also I might appear tomboyish but I have the softest heart that words can soften my heart like a cheesecake soften up.

15. I can be quite anti-social when it comes to friends. Before befriend with a person, I meticulously study either can I trust or not on that particular person. Not that I do not want to mix with everyone but I was betrayal several times by friends. To simplify, when I trust a friend, I truthfully trust a friend and they become one of the closest and trusted friend but if I do not trust a friend, I will completely ignore a friend and refused to mix with them.

16. I have a fear of clown more than grossing out on creepy crawling. Clown is equal to Satan or Devil in my opinion. Blah!

I am tagging everyone!!

Signing off.

HOW??

I am so obsessed with skincare! I know most girls should be obsessing with makeup but what I really want is a porcelain skin. So I have had read on how to get a porcelain skin and here is what I found out.



St. Ives apricot scrub

St. Ives mineral clay mask

St. Ives Stress gel



Are these good? I've tried the second mention above and bloody hell I love it.



I found out that "Follow Me UV White O2 Advance Toner" recommended by the Sales Assistant is very friendly to my skin.

I found out that "Neutrogena Fine Fairness Foaming Cleanser" works very well for my skin but not as friendly as the toner. Further more, it last me for just a month unlike my "somang foaming cleanser" that last me 3 months long. I guess I need to do survey and research. A cleanser that is gentle yet effective.

I saw Bio-Oil in one of the nearest pharmacy and I thought of buying:



Bio Oil

100% Tea Tree Oil



How and what should I do? I heard it is natural. So, why not?



Are alcohol in skincare ingredient are really alcohol that were made into alcoholic drink? Confusing. . . .



Because you see, my "Biore Cleansing Oil" is the only makeup remover that is very suitable for me. Or should I take a look at ZA Cleansing oil?

I think I am in love with Amelie Poulain ost songs!!

Signing off.

"Sweet" dream?

I forgot to mention earlier before my few previous post that I had a strange dream (well, I've had always have). That was all about winter, night shopping sales (etc...) and the most scariest/weirdest was that the fact that I, along with my other friends (I will not mention who) and my sister were being in this situation where a good-looking guy watch or look after us.

Here what happened in my not-so-sweet-dream. . . .

- This guy whom supposedly to be my, my trusted friends and sister's guardian.

- It was winter in a middle of the night and the place are not like Singapore, in fact I love the place. At that time it terribly busy because of Christmas sales.



I along with my friends K, S, A and my sister are not aloud to go out as what had been warned by the guy shall I call him AA?
But because of the night Christmas sale, S was so curious and pulled me along with her to go shopping but I was in doubt. Without acknowledge my words she pulled me along and when shopping in this boutique. It was so busy. As S was shopping trying some clothing, suddenly my sister popped in front of me out of nowhere and join S for shopping. K went out and warned me not to go out and be home instantly and A was at the back take no notice about the situation. I told K that it was not me but S and my sister. But once everyone was there AA came in the boutique and told all of us to go home. But I ignore him and play with the snow while looking at the dark night sky. As I was doing enjoying my view, people everywhere rushed toward my right side like the world was about to end. Out of curiosity, I follow suit which indeed had been opposed from AA as what he said curiosity killed the cat. But then as I ran forward with the crowd I saw this light on the right as I run forward away from AA. What is the light??

It was in fact my neighborhood with my neighborhood school backyard. I was stunned. For all the time I was in a humongous white tent filled with I-do-not-know-if-its-real night/winter! As I saw some senior citizen enjoying the outdoor sun, I went out from the humongous white tent and then AA scream "don't go out there!"

Then I woke up from my not-so deep sleep. FYI, AA is not bad as my point of view just that he was being protective in a softer kind of way (if you know what I mean). AA was in fact quite attractive in my point of view.
Ohh... I remembered he was wearing red t-shirt and jeans, not so tall, not so short about average.

Weird weird! So sad it was not what it seems it should be.

Now I am going to hit the TV screen.

Signing off.

Techs and gadgets.

Here is another post about me myself and I so be prepare to get bore. This week is the last week for the second term of this semester and I can't wait for holidays!
And in a few days I might be getting my mp3 from a local (Singapore) brand called Creative. I know people think I should get Portable Multimedia Player or Play Station Portable but honestly I don't need certain functions available in these latest gadgets. I don't need multi-function gadget to do its work because its very inconvenient for me. I will be getting the Creative Zen stone plus.



Zen stone plus basically is identical (but slightly larger) with the Zen stone (that is quite similar with the ipod shuffle). However, it has monochromic OLED screen, a built-in FM tuner, a stopwatch (the first ZEN player to have this ability) and a built-in microphone. A built-in speaker version was released later after this version was released. And I might be getting Zen stone plus with built-in speaker.

Okay, the reason why I do not want to get those latest, most popular IN-gadgets is because later on the craze about these tech will possibly die. Onces a very new and latest gadget would be released in the future, I might be getting it and not now.

I think should be hitting my theory books.

Signing off.

Roller coaster and movie.

Its been long since I've had been blogging and gosh a lot of things been happening! Both good and bad. Honestly its like a roller coaster. My life is damn complicated. But no matter what I have to face with patience and with an open heart.

Gosh....

What a roller coaster. This so-called stalker, my crush *blush* (hihi...), school projects and assignments also revisions, problems (urgh...) and "ETC".

First of a month ago watch this interesting movie called It's a boy girl thing.

I must say this is one of those interesting romantic-comedy movie from the states that isn't suck. Most romantic-comedy from the states aren't as compatible like those from Japan, South Korea and Taiwan that I've seen. But basically this is just like those typical american Romantic-Comedy (if you've seen Just my luck or The hot chick etc, you know what I mean) but it's watchable. For remakes movie, I'm really dissappointed. Such as One missed call, The eye, My sassy girl. These remakes aren't the 'boom' like the originals.

But anyways, I'm looking forward for Madagascar 2 movie!

Signing off.

Reminiscing.

I have not update this blog for quite a long time due to some reasons.
Also for all this time I've been busy writing my fiction sometimes I do get writer's block but a true novelist or writer knew what could have been done an they knew how to get idea creatively. I'm not saying that I'm a good writer but those are just one of my thoughts.


Sometimes I felt that it wasn't as cheerful or as fresh as the morning sunlight shining through the window but when I look deeply and understand meticulously every reminiscences flash through my mind and that makes me mirthful eventhough if it happened to be raining, cloudy or even thunderstorm. Basically happy thoughts make me happy.

Signing off.

My big mouth and I.

If only my big mouth would just shut up. T_T"!